Tuesday, January 30, 2007
arthur is back
WOOHOO!!! ARTHUR had landed safely this morning. Phew! Glad to hear that Arthur had landed. He did not settle there to set up a family. I am hoping him to bring boxes of curries to school distrubuting those curry sachets too everyone. I WANT MY CURRY ARTHUR! THAT IS WHAT I'M WAITING FOR DURING THE PAST 15 DAYS! Muahahahahahas!
YAY!!! ALL THE NOISES WILL BE BACK! Craps will be back again & 4 Hybrid will be filled with more fun & laughters! Hooray!
lots of love @
21:59
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Saturday, January 27, 2007
Lalalalalalalas
Message to somebody:
I did not expect you to cheer me up. Thanks for being my listening ears. Thanks for consoling me. Thanks for all the wishes. I was so surprise. Thanks a lot! Good luck for everything. I'll be there to support you always. Loves ;)
It was inevitably a miracle. I really could not stretch my lips and contract my cheeks last evening. Not until night time. Somebody whom I did not expect to crap to me in my entire life was the one who cheered me up. That person was great. I finally smile! I suddenly forgotten all my sorrows. My heart was filled with warmth and joy. At first, I thought that I would never get someone to listen to the pains and sorrows which had haunted me for more than a week. That person suddenly spoke to me and consoled me!
Anyway, I went to Nan Chiau Primary today for the choreographing of the Nan Chiau 60th Anniversary mass performance. Mr Low was the choreographer. The little kids are so ADORABLE! I LOVE THEM! They are so sweet! SMOOCHES. I love to dance with little kids. The movements are easy to catch up with! I'm looking foward to the next practice!
Bye!
lots of love @
20:14
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Friday, January 26, 2007
Just an update
Updating My feelings:
Description ~ Mixed feelings
Happiness: 25%
Anger: 0%
Sadness: 50%
Restless: 25%
Hunger: 0%
Madness: 0%
Sigh. I just couldn't smile today. I'm very tired. I'm smiling outside, yet weeping inside.
Serious mood swings just occured! My mood suddenly shoot up and feel so HIGH!!! Woots!
lots of love @
22:52
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
3 More months to my birthday...
Note to somebody:
Your MSN's nick has been always pessimistic. I feel a crack in my heart. Why do you always look down on yourself? In my eyes, you have always been one of the best. You are not futile. In another words, you are never useless. Hope that you will cheer up. I miss the cute and cheerful you that you have used to be.
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Hello! I have been sick for such a long period of time. My throat and nose are horrible. Perhaps there is some problems with my lungs. I had "Beep" - test today during PE lesson. I could not complete stage four as I started to have breathing difficulties and coughing non-stopped. My legs were tired and my heartbeat did not go back to normal rate despite resting for more then half an hour.
I had my Biology test. I was too nervous before the test. I still remembered what I had studied now. But I am afraid that I don't score well for my essay and structured questions (Or rather the whole paper).
I did titration after school. I love doing titration more compared to last time! Woots!
Anyway, these topics are not related to title but it's really 3 months to my birthday!
lots of love @
22:48
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Monday, January 22, 2007
The horrible storm in my heart had finally ended
The horrible storm in my heart had finally ended. The gust of cold wind had gone. They are replaced by the clear blue sky with a warm loving Sun. Sometimes, cooling breeze will blow off the dark grey clouds.
My little sister is so sweet! She is primary one now. She often buy my favourite snacks from school for me! My pencil case is spoilt. She gave her favourite one to me! I love her! But she is leaving to Taiwan next week for an educational trip! I gonna miss her. But it's for her own good.
I love all my girl friends! Especially stella! Stella sent me to my void deck today. She was so sweet of her. We have so many things to talk about. She often comfort me and cheer me up. Xue Yan, Min Min and Hui Yu showered me with a lot of love and concern. All my daughters are great too, especially Denyse, Wen Zi and Regina. Shitstead Jocelyn and Lynette have been crapping with me in class. Liling never forgets to buy sweets for me! Theresa has always bring me joy. Macadia and company brought me fun and companionship yesterday at Sentosa! My friends are great! I love them!
lots of love @
19:54
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Sunday, January 21, 2007
SENTOSA
I'm back from Sentosa! I had a great day there. Let's start off from the moment when I step out of my house!
Well, I went to Buangkok MRT Station to take MRT to Compass Point. I got some harshbrowns at MacDonald and some snacks at 7-Eleven. Well, the I saw Liling! She was wearing PINK TOP AND WHITE BOTTOM! SAME AS ME! HI-5! She had fried a lot of harshbrowns for us! YAY! LOVE HER LOTS! YAY! So we take MRT from Sengkang all the way to Harbour Front and headed to the Monoreel (Don't really know the spelling). It was my first time taking Monoreel to Sentosa. Kind of cool. Ya. So we headed to Palawan Beach.
Most of the people there are Indians. I don't feel as if I'm in Singapore as I am one of the minorities. They are celebrating Pongal Festival -- a festival whereby Indians (or rather Hindus) celebrating great harvest. There are a lot of games and exibitions. We need to purchase coupons in order to participate. Mr Seah had spent a lot of money on us -- both food and coupon!
We walked around looking for great games. We stopped at a station whereby one suppose to whack a 'clay pot' with a baton. The player suppose to try to hit the clay pot till it cracks in order to get the money inside and the person would be splash by seawater when he or she is attempting to hit. Wan Xin is our heroine! She volunteered to try and she won $10! BUT SHE IS ALL WET. When Jing Kang wanted to try, he was told that he need to be bindfolded. He did not manage to crack the pots.
Well, after that, I my attention was drawn by Macadia's and friends. They were playing with sea water. So I joined them. It was so fun playing with them. I took pictures for them. They want the 'jumping' effect. I'm a great photographer. I manage to take them jumping in the mid air. NICE AND COOL! Then we headed to make Heena (A kind of indian tatoo) then to rangoli competition. I was same group as Macadia, Yifen, Shi Min, Michelle and Roslynn.
The Rangoli was kind of horrible. Mr seah bought us flour instead of rice. It was so hard to colour. But end up we managed to get some rice. The other NCHS Team had completed before us. Then that stupid Chun Leong keep asking our group to give up! DUMB! Macadia told him to shut up. The other group left after they had completed theirs. The rest were done by the Indian Ladies. Their master piece were so great! Luckily we did not give up! We had won a prize despite we were the only non-Indians participating the competition! Yay! It's the team's hard work, rite? We were told to wait till the prize giving ceremony.
The Minister of State arrived. He said that ours is creative. (But actually everything is Macadia's idea). The concert began. Everything was in Tamil. I understand nothing. We were not so patient to wait till the end of prize giving ceremony and played with sea water. It was too late that we left. We told Mr Seah to help us to take the prize. He even treated us icecreams! He is a great teacher. 4 Hybrid! We must REPAY HIM! So I went to take pictures around with Macadia and her clique. Then I went home with Yifen & Roslynn. So great to be with them! Thank you Macadia, Shi Min, Michelle, Yifen and Roslynn! Thank you for keeping me accompany when the rest left.
I had fun! But thinking of Biology test on wednesday, ARGHH! Okay! Bye!
lots of love @
20:15
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Friday, January 19, 2007
ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE
ONE
I had broken down lately. I could no longer take it. Everyone understands except for her. I just can't get the right time to explain. I am taking my GCE 'O' Level this year and she just doesn't let me off. I need a break seriously!
I cried for two reasons. Sadness and touched. I just realised that so many teachers and friends are concerned about me. I LOVE ALL THOSE PEOPLE!
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TWO
I had my dance practice today. I prefer it to be held on thursday. FRIDAY IS MY SLEEPING DAY! The only day I could reach home earlier and have a good rest after so many days of school. The day I can rush my homework. I have dance class on Saturday. My parents said if I really cannot take it, they seriously want me to quit. My health isn't in good condition. They actually don't allow me to participate in SYF. Mr Tien saw me being so restless today. I was even too tired to answer such a simple Chemistry question. He told me to stop if I could not make it.
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THREE
I feel so out lately. Sigh.
She has changed lately compared to last week. Kind of disappointing. I want the old her to be back again. It is kind of cold.
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FOUR
The people who knows my inside world are stella and my mother. They know most of my doubts, my joy and sorrows. I must cherish them a lot. Stella accompanied me home today. She missed her stop as she was enjoy watching a funny video on TV Mobile. I even missed my stop. The driver did not stop the bus despite pressing the bell.
Huiyu, Min Min and Xue Yan are great too! They were by my side when I broke down today.
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FIVE
I AM GOING TO SENTOSA THIS SUNDAY. WOOHOO!
lots of love @
22:17
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
ANOTHER RUBBISH
I don't wish to look at her. Whenever I see her, it reminds me of the sorrow lately. I'm not angry with her. Neither I blame her. It's just the person who is related to her, whom her has been appreciating. It's not her fault, I really don't feel like seeing her.
However, at the same time, I felt sympathetic to what have happened to her lately. I understand how she feels right now. It was what I had been through in late 2004. But my consequences was not as bad as hers. But she is totally innocent! I'm really touched by her actions. She had protected her friends from the hot soup though some were the one who had put her into hot soup. I feel so sorry! I wanted to console her, comfort her and speak to her. I feel like bursting into tears.
There is an irony in my mind.
I don't feel like seeing her, but I feel like consoling her. You can't expect me speaking to her but I am not looking at her! She's already so depressed! Sigh! Can anyone help me? Can anyone help her?
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AND HE!!! He is the culprit. I have lost trust on him completely. It is not the first time he had betrayed me and my great friend. He is a hypocrite! What's the big deal of his big man's decision (direct translation from mandarin)? And he have been exaggerating things that he is not supposed to. He had corrupted her mind and her thoughts! Is he so petty that I defied him once? He always target on those who don't know how to make decision. He had been bad mouthing people. What's so special about him though he is a senior? I obey what all the seniors had said. I respected all their decisions. I follow what they said and what the instructor said. But he always twisted what I had done! AND ALL HIS ADVICE TOWARDS STUDIES ARE BULLSHITS & USELESS. He is also very helpless yet very boastful! I have been respecting him for more than three years and after those incidents (which I don't wish to mention), I had decided not to speak to him unless it is necessary, to avoid unnecessary trouble.
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Those above are written to ease the discomfort in my heart. For those who don't understand, don't bother to investigate. Don't bother to know their identities.
lots of love @
21:57
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Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Hmm...
We have Chinese spelling tomorrow and Elementary Mathematics test on Thursday. Quite a lot of homeworks today. I am so envious of Arthur! He's in India! Hahas~ The second day. I wonder what when he do with those pieces of notes the class had written to him. Will he read? Will he be aware that I WANT MY CURRY? Or he had already dumb them aside and had forgotten when he had left the pieces of notes before he had read them? I think he is not that mean to not appreciating our wishes. The class is kinda missing Arthur.
I'm so tired! So many things to settle! SIGH!!! Dance practice has been postponed to Friday. I don't want it to be on friday! Friday is the only day I could take a break after a long days of school. YAWN!
lots of love @
18:54
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Monday, January 15, 2007
I WANT MY CURRY!
Arthur is had already reached India now, i think. It's weird without Arthur in class. I miss his craps, his jokes, his "PUICH". He's coming back at the end of the month. ARGHHH! Everyone had written short notes to him to bid farewell and write things like "Bon Voyage", "Don't get kidnapped by ****" ~LOLS!, "Take care" & "BUY ME CURRY!!!!!!!". I WANT MY CURRY!!! Hahahas! Arthur said that he will buy gifts for his special friends! I keep telling him that I want my curry! LOLS! Not just me, others too! I wonder if Arthur will come back with boxes of curries or he'll never get back and settled down there with a new family? NO WAY! I WANT MY CURRY! GET ME CURRY BEFORE YOU SETTLE DOWN WITH YOUR NEW FAMILY, OKAY? It's a promise.
CURRY CURRY CURRY!
lots of love @
21:30
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
Rubbish...
Some kind of friendships are fragile.
We used to be strangers.
Then to normal friends.
Then to close friends.
We used to exchange secrets.
We used to exchange doubts.
We used to talk about everything.
Anything on Earth.
But now,
Everything is over.
Not even a normal friend.
Not even a "hi".
Communication break down?
You are just a contact in my MSN contact list.
An inactive contact.
Just as before we met.
Back to a stranger again.
Another topic...
I need help. Those potential helpers are useless. I've been asking them for help, might as well don't ask. Wasting my time & effort. I'm left with one potential helping hand. That person just came online. Should I ask? Or should I not? It will be weird. That person doesn't knows me well. I'm sure he would help. But I have no courage to ask & I'll feel guilty. Oh well, I don't care anymore. It's all depending on myself now. Sigh...
Okay, bye! [i'm insane today... just don't be bothered by those rubbish I had typed! Arggh!]
lots of love @
23:07
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Friday, January 12, 2007
I live the passion
I am happy with the teachers who are teaching me currently. They made me love the subjects. They motivate us and help us to build passion in the subjects. All the teacher are strict that I could not escape for not doing my homework and hand them up on time. So I have to complete all my assignments.
Ms Betsy Teo is teaching me English. Her lesson is very interesting. I thought her lesson might be boring as that was how I felt when I was Secondary One. She taught me Literature then. Her English lesson is so much interesting. I used to dislike comprehension, after guiding us while going through the comprehension, I started to learn the technics of answering skills.
Mrs Hoo will be our Chinese teacher. She is having her maternity leave now and will be coming back at the end of this month. Many people dislike her. But I don't actually. She has a sharp tongue but she is a nice teacher. I'm sure my Chinese will be perfect if she teaches me.
Ms Neo teaches us Biology. Although her voice is not as loud as Mr Hareesh's voice, and seemed boring, her teaching is much more efficient and I'm able to digest what she has taught.
For both Mathematics, Mr Koh is our teacher. Yay! I don't have to spend any money for tuition.
Mrs Lim is our Elective Geography teacher. Well, although I'm not used to her style, she is nice. I try my best to pay attention to her lesson. I miss Mrs Kang! Nevermind.
Mr Seah is our Social Study teacher. He is funny and much better than Mr Ansar. His teaching is much more efficent and I understand more.
Mr Tien is still our Chemistry teacher and Mr Foo is still our Physics teacher.
Well, all my teachers are good. I live the passion not only in dance but also academy. And thus, I have no worries for not to score distinctions for my GCE O Level Examination.
Changing the topic...
I'm so tired! It has been raining for the pass few days. I'm shivering cold and feeling so sick. I still have Additional Mathematics Test on Trigogeomatry tomorrow. I have fogotten all the formulae. All returned to Ms Maimunah. I still have Chinese dance class after that. But can I take a leave for this week's class? I'm feeling so sick.
lots of love @
16:07
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Sunday, January 07, 2007
YAY!!!
I finally went back to Dance Inspiration today! The most important reason is to return the costumes we had borrowed from crescent girls' dance. Second important is buffet. That buffet is ment for people who had contributed in Dance Inspiration in 2006. I did not contribute much yet i was invited. Arggh! Feel so guilty... But there were series of good news!
One of my favourite piece of news is that MR LOW IS COMING TO NAN CHIAU HIGH & NAN CHIAU PRIMARY TO CHOREOGRAPH A MASS DISPLAY FOR OUR SCHOOL 60TH ANNIVERSARY! CHINESE DANCE, DANCE INTERNATIONAL & NAN CHIAU PRIMARY DANCE & WUSHU GROUP IS COMBINING WITH US!!! NAN HUA DANCERs ALSO COMBINING TOO! WOOTS!!!!! YAY!!!!!
I'm so high.... lalalalalalalalalala!!!!
And I SAW MY OBS INSTRUCTOR BELINDA ON MY WAY TO PEOPLE'S ASSOCIATION AT CITY HALL MRT STATION! SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO ALIGHT AT CITY HALL AND TRANSFER TOWARDS DHOUBY GHAUT & TRANSFER TOWARDS PUNGGOL MRT STATION & TO PUGGOL JETTY THEN TO PULAU UBIN! She realised that she had missed her stop when the train stopped at Bugis MRT Station. She was trying to recall who I was not till I reminded her that I was same group as Arthur. She remebers Winnie & I as dancer. Lalalalalalala.....
lots of love @
21:29
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Saturday, January 06, 2007
I'm tired of it
I'm tired of this. I'm tired of everything. Can I don't face the music? I want to cry, but I can't. I had no other choice but I must face it.
I was restless after today's dance training. When I saw a message from my brother that my phone bill had exceeded $70. That was a lot. I had over shot by one thousand SMS. I need to explain to my uncle one I reach home. My explanation is simple -- I had to forward the updates via SMS (which is at least 2 sms long) to most of my juniors regarding the dance practice in the december holiday & they had questions and I had to address to their queries. I had made a lot of outgoing calls because I need to contact a lot of people urgently when I was not at home. My uncle did not scold me but he was quite worried about me. I used the phone not the sake of myself, but others. He's afraid that I might be taken for granted. But my mother wasn't pleased! She scolded me as if I misused my SMS to kill boredom! She often asked me to send sms to my dad & brother to ask them what time will they be back or if they would be home for any meal etc. My dad scolded me and said that I was being controlled by my handphone. Well, as if I uses my phone and talking nonsense. He wasn't at home so regularly. RWARW!!!!
My parents refused to listen to my explanation. They said that those were silly excuses and blah blah blah blah...... I'm so rude to post this on blog. But no choice. Just to release my discomfort. Sigh.... sigh... sigh...
They haven't ended their nags. There is nothing I can do but to face the music. The most I'll let my phone to rust for this month. But that was impossible. How could I not to attend to address my juniors' queries regarding trainings? Unless there is something better than SMS to communicate with? I had a lot to say to them. It's impossible for me to call them one by one. My mother scolds me for calling. What else can I do? Arggh!
lots of love @
22:34
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Friday, January 05, 2007
First Week of School - Exhausted
The first week just flashed past in a snap. Teachers had been counting down to our GCE O Level Examination which would fall on this October. It sounded as if it was the next day. My mind have not been prepared yet.
My mother complains that I have been over enthusiastic in dance. I had overworked. My first feel days of school was spent on dance. The first day I stayed back to make posters to promote dance. The second day I stayed back for SYF training. Those two days I reached home after 7pm. By the time I had finished my dinner, it was already later then 9pm. I tried my best to complete my homework (and some holiday homework). I slept later then 12am and woke up before 6am. Today I had to dance dance dance dance & dance to promote our CCA. We had a hard time! Just don't wanna mention about the painful moment we had went through.
I finally understand the meaning of exhausted! I'm really exhausted! Very tired! I had not had proper breakfast and lunch for these 3 days. I had to dance from afternoon to evening today! My muscles ache... I need a break but I have two more dance lessons next two days.
Take care my fellow friends! Eat well & rest well & don't overwork. It doesn't feel good! See you people!
lots of love @
22:49
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