Wednesday, November 21, 2007
TOO MUCH
Note: The purpose of posting this entry is to let people aware what's overboard. There's no ulterior motives and strictly contains no criticism and sarcasm.
At first, it was the wardrobe. The in charge of Group A suggested to buy a wardrobe to share among Group A and B. And they occupied the most spacious part. That's alright. Group A have broad-minded people. So they don't quarrel over this.
Now, the make-up kit. The yellow kit was broad and spacious. It was specially bought for Group A. Group A owns it for two years. Group B used it but Group A uttered not a single nasty words. Group A is willing to share as long as Group B doesn't go overboard. Now, they took it without permission for their competition when Group A is also taking part in the competition too. Does Group B knows taking others' things without permission is considered as stealing? Group A has to get another make-up kits for the members.
Hope that they'll learn. Sorry if anyone is offended.
lots of love @
19:10
... I believe it's possible
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Wednesday, November 14, 2007
YAY YAY YAY!
THE BATTLE HAS FINALLY COME TO AN END! :D
WHEE! I'm so happy, I'm so happy, happy day, everyday... (What's next? I've forgotten the lyrics!) Never mind.
I went for dance yesterday after my Biology paper. I could feel the chill coming from the instructor. I withdrew from the private dance team because I've some private reasons that I really really really could not go. I mean, if the training sessions don't fall on Friday night, perhaps I could make it. I can't be so selfish.
After dance, Stella and I went to Plaza Singapura to meet Lynette and Jocelyn. We went for lunch and catch THE BEE MOVIE! It was a very nice movie! Chun Leong suggested that for class outing, but it was cancelled. I want to watch Game Plan! But my schedule will be tight after this week. I need to prepare to go overseas and work for my grandfather and uncle.
ROAR ROAR ROAR! I'm sick and tired now! But luckily, O level is over! My whole family is sick actually. We have running noses!
Take care people! Drink more water and don't get caught in rain!
lots of love @
18:16
... I believe it's possible
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Saturday, November 10, 2007
The Last
I was too much indeed for the previous post.
That would be my last sarcasm.
That would be my last critisism.
That would be the last time I'm viewing others' faults.
That would be the last time I would gossip.
That would be the last time I would be the last time I'm showing my resentment.
That would be the last time I would be lamenting, bemoaning and whining.
That would be the last time I would insult others.
The last... The last... ...
I realised (and it's too late) that didn't brought mutual benefits. So what if I criticised? So what if I was sarcastic? Neither of us were happy! I mean, that was the ephemeral joy of mine being sarcastic, however, deep down, I was being unsatisfied about him. I was unhappy actually. And what if he read that entry? He might hurt no matter what. Or he might be exasperated. Things may turn out WORSE! STUPID ME!!! That's not the pathway to be a compassionate person.
I just checked out the real definition of compassion.
Compassion is the ability to feel the suffering in ourselves and others in an open heart. Compassion is the ability to sit with an open heart in the presence of unpleasant state.
Am I being compassionate? Certainly not! I was being so childish! I brought myself pain, anger, sorrows, distrust, hostility... Would I be happy? No.
Thus, I'm going to kick those horrible habit. I'm trying to.
08/11/2007, Thursday, Deepavali.
I met my dearest Cherylc early in the morning (actually not early, it's 10am) at City Hall. We went to Marina Square for breakfast, together with Ying Hui, Ai Leng, Qi Xu and Qi Kang. (LOL! Qi Kang was the only guy.) Hmmm. After breakfast, we intended to catch a movie, but there's no movie showing so early! Arw. So we went to play for bowling. We were the 10th in the waiting list. We waited for an hour till our turn. That was my first bowling session alright! So I was a noob. Haa! When it was 12 noon, I met up with my brother than we went to Lavender.
Ying Haw didn't dare to speak to me. Maybe my card was really too sarcastic. He asked his sister, Jessica to ask me about my O's.
09/11/2007, Friday.
I stayed at home till evening. Actually, I intended to go to school. But I had not been doing my revision, so I stayed at home. I went to look for my bro. I'm not sure Wan Er or Pei Qi bought the cake for my brother and I. But when I entered the room, I saw Ying Haw eating the cake. He was so weird. He waved to me enthusiastically as if it was the first time he saw me. He was just pretending in front of his friend. He was really really weird. When he had finished half of the cake, I realised that cake was mine. I won't share the cake with him. So my brother used and intelligent way to "force" him to finish the cake when he was full. That turned out to be an embarrassing joke! My brother was so smart, FINALLY!
10/11/2007, Saturday.
Today was my grandmother's lunar birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA! Tomorrow will be her actual birthday. Guess I'll celebrate with her tomorrow.
I LOVE WAN ER!!! SHE'S MY BEST WHATSOEVER! She's my best listener, best advisor, best teacher, best sister, best friend, etc. (:
Take care people! I SHALL END HERE! The battle will resume soon! ALL THE BEST!
lots of love @
22:04
... I believe it's possible
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Monday, November 05, 2007
WOOHOO!
Yay! I'm back finally. I'm having a week break until the next paper! I can't celebrate now. Some have their last paper tomorrow. Argghh! Anyway, I screwed up in a lot of papers. Cambridge set questions that we overlooked. And it's certainly shameful that I can't answer very easy question...
Yay yay yay! Let me be crazy for awhile! Haha! I can finally spit out everything that had been stuck in my mind since many many many many many weeks ago!!! Hahahahahahaha!
Yay! I certainly can't tolerate someone who has some mental problems (I think), because he seriously think that I'm copying him, stalking him and what so ever... Hahah! I think that's funny! Well, I've something special dedicated to him:
Hey young man! Do you think when you glare at me with vexation and hatred hurt me like a ton of bricks. Sorry sir, it doesn't. It's rather a speck of dust or an air particle. It's never heavier than that! Your callous stare doesn't work as well! I'm not as fragile as you imagine. Those were futile endeavours of hurting such a strong girl! I'm not being conceited here. I'm just stating the fact! I'm certainly much stronger than you do.
You quail timidly like a mouse whenever you see me! You seemed as if I'm going to prey on you, hunt you or haunt you. You'll begin to shun as if I'm playing hide-and-seek with you. That's such an unfair game! I'm always the catcher! Anyway, I DON'T PLAY HIDE-AND-SEEK WITH YOU. I don't bother where your cache is located or whether I'm already close to your cache. Actually, your presence is oblivious until you shun. Your movement makes you prominent! Why do you shun? If you want to keep you away from my sight, shun in a manner that you are not noticible.
Sometimes, you seemed as if I'm the harbinger of castatrophe or doom. What do you deem a doom? My invasion into your world? Whereby I'm the sales lady attending to you in the departmental stall and subsequently transformed into cashier when you are paying up; I'm the waitress serving you in the restaurant; I'm the lady at the counter doing registration for you in a family clinic and subsequently transformed into the doctor; I'm the taxi driver or bus driver of whichever taxi or bus you took; I'm your neighbourhood cleaner; I'm your custumer servicer; etc. Is that the doom that you are fearing for? I'm everyone, everytime, everywhere? Sorry sir, that's impossible unless I've multiple clones to stalk you. Seriously, I don't stalk you in real life!
And I couldn't fathom why you've become BOLD when you are with your friends. You will begin to shoot nasty words when you realised my presence. You'll think that those vulgarities will hurt me. Certainly not. Why not you shout them out loud in vacuum to ease your hostility? So that you can burst your throat but I can't hear you? That's better! BUT... Why do you do all these? Your actions are contradicting -- you are trying to avoid me, but at the same time, you caught my attention.
Why do you do all these? You weren't like this when I first know you! You've changed overnight and it's too abrupt for me to react. I don't have a crush on you, neither do I hate you. I didn't do anything evil to you at your back, besides this letter. I'm too nice that I didn't divulge your identity here. Or do you hate me? If you do, why not you just tell me directly instead of torturing yourself like this? Or do you want me to have a crush on you to freak you out? By then, you might end up in mental hospital and you're certainly relief that I'll never appear again. No, good story doesn't end here. It's too abrupt. What if, I'm in the same ward as you. Wait, that's impossible, unless you are a female or I'm a male. But it's still possible IF I'm your full time nurse or your psychiatrist. That'll certainly make you surrender in the end.
For all these while, you did the nasty things that I'd to you and vice versa. However, I find it convival when you find it exasperating. We've been succumbing each other to lure the success. I think it's the time to put an end for this game. It's not that I wish to surrender, you could still continue if you want to. You can challenge my patience but I warn you, it'll be exhausting. Why not I challenge yours? I bet you'll lose! I find it pointless to continue. What if you triumph over me? You would be rewarded with ephemeral joy only. That's worthless, don't you think? Why not we put this game to an end right now. Admit that you've lost! Be a good loser; shake hands and be friends again. (Or you don't dare to shake hand with me? That's alright!)
This is not meant to be an insult or a crude joke. Really. I'm sorry lad, if you feel offended. I'm just spewing out what ever that come to my mind. Pardon me for the sarcasm, I just can't resist it!
Erm... I think I had gone overboard for that. That's all that I wanted to spit. Take care people!
lots of love @
18:12
... I believe it's possible
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