Monday, February 26, 2007
People with round cheek rawks!
I was totally depressed early in the morning. My mood was kind of dampen when one of my good friend comment on some incident. I guess she hurt me unintentionally. But I'm fine right now. Yea!
I woke up at 5am automatically these few days. I can't sleep after I woke up, but I'm still tired! Arghh! I start falling asleep during my Chinese paper. I was too slow to complete the paper. =X Mathematics paper was easy but I had lost 2 marks for carelessness. Never mind. It's already over. I wanted to go home immediately to study my Social Study and Chemistry! But I almost forgotten that I have Civics & Moral Education till 3.30pm! Arggh! Who wants to stay back for the sake of CME?! I mean, it's common test season & we stayed back for the sake of attendance only. I did not bring my Chemistry and Social Study materials to school for self revision. I had been rotting in class for one and a half hour. Some of my friends went off before Mr See came in.
It started raining during CME. It was heavier till the end. But the heavy rain stops for me when I stepped out of my school gate. I walked home alone. The sky was still overcast and I could still hear the thunders clapping. As I was running across an empty field, the thunder was getting louder, means it was nearer. I quickly ran to Buangkok MRT station to prevent to be stroke by lightning. Phew, that was close! I took 10 minutes to reached home from school!
As the Sky was overcast, it resembled my gloom. My heart was overcast too. It was covered by a think layer of dust where the light barely shines through. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. My tears were dried. I was crying in my heart. Nobody in school realised that I was unhappy. I just don't know how to tell people how depressed I was. I don't know who to tell. I really don't know.
I was cheered up by Kee Lui though he doesn't really know what was really going on. I told him I couldn't smile and he replied "Who say you can't, just place two fingers under each of your round cheeks and push it and tada! You are smiling =)" I burst into laughter all of a sudden. Thanks a lot! People with round cheeks rock! Yea =D
lots of love @
17:36
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Sunday, February 25, 2007
Why is that so?
Many people seem unhappy these few days. What's wrong?
One of my closest friend was unhappy yesterday. She sat alone at a corner. She was so quiet, unliked her usual self. I approached her and realised her eyes were filled with tears. She tried to hid her tears before I stopped in front of her. But I had already seen that. I asked her what's wrong with her, what was bothering her? She shrug her shoulders. She tried to pretend that she wasn't crying, but her actions just could not bluff me. I tried to console her. She forced herself to smile and tried not to cry in front of me
My heart sank. I knew that her smile was somehow forceful. I knew that she doesn't want me to be affected by her mood. But why was that so
Later at night, I heard from my friend roughly what was going on. I almost cried! Why is our clique emotionally scattered? We seem united (physically), but we are not mentally attached. Why? Cold war occuring among people. When will the cold war end? When will the misunderstandings be cleared? I have no idea. I could only watched helplessly. I knew that I must do something. But what must I do? I don't know. This is not a good answer
Hmmmm. I hope things will be better when time goes by. Hope people will be more optimistic.
For those who are depressed, CHEER UP, okay?
Okay, lets move out of something that dampen people's mood.
Well, I watched Chingay live telecast on TV. I was waiting for the item Hand-In-Hand. That was nice ~ of coursed! It was performed by Dance Inspiration. (: I was so excited when I saw that. I called Xue Yan and she was so blurred that she didn't know it was the item Hand-In-Hand. Goshed. Hahas. I must change her name to BLUR Xue Yan. Hahaha!
When I watched Hand In Hand, I have an urge to go back to Dance Inspiration. It would be exactly a year that I did not turned up the practices, the trainings. I miss those days dancing there. I wanted to go back. But my mum says only after my O level. Argghh! I stopped last year because of my health problem. After when I had recovered, it was the school work that banned me from going. Arggh! Mr Low is no longer Nan Chiau's Dance instructor, and now, I can't go back to PA!
Hmmm. Am I too mean to Madam Ong? I just withdrew from her TAPAC dance class and now she invites me to join the free Chinese dance lesson at Bradell Heights. I rejected somehow. I told her that I may be joining after my O level, but I know myself well, I am going back to Dance Inspiration. Am I too mean?
lots of love @
11:49
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Saturday, February 24, 2007
Crazy me
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINDY!!!
Well, I finally could have a good night sleep last night. But Jocelyn said that I'm kinda crazy today. I was laughing at very early in the morning.
I had Physics remedial this morning. Mr Foo was going through the workbook. I wasn't paying attention. In fact, I was messaging. I only pay attention when I spotted his mistake, especially his pronouciation problem. MEAN GIRL RIGHT? Poh Yih saw me messaging and he kept saying "Oh! Qianyong!"
I had lunch with Sylvia at compass point and saw Huiyu on my way to Nan Chiau Primary School. We waited for Xue Yan and meet Min Min and walked there together.
Well, kind of pissed off by my junior. She could not turn up today's training for some quite silly reason. I was persuading or somehow forcing her to go. She said she could not reached there on time. Well, I would rather her to be late than absent for those craps. It's the last training. The performance is next week and she's kind of slow in learning new steps. She is sort of inconsiderate. There will be Chingay tonight, Mr Low, Yong Xuan and Connie still came to help today though they are involved in tonight's Chingay. Well, it's common test season, it is certainly unfair to those who had turned up this afternoon.
Today's training was restless. But I like the feeling. I love Nan Chiau Primary Kids. They are so adorable. I love those tiny ones as those bigger size ones are almost my height. Arggh! So tall! I feel short! Those tiny ones keep sticking to me! One of them played with my handphone when I was marking their attendance. I love kids!
Well, there was something I had missed out in the previous post. I took bus home with Stella yesterday. We met Poh Yih when we were boarding the bus. We took the back seat and were kinda noisy when Stella was teasing Poh Yih and I was laughing loudly at Poh Yih's lameness. The passengers sitting in front of me actually shifted their seat. It was a woman, with her daughter, a Nan Chiau student [she's secondary one I guess]. The woman was frowning and said that we were noisy in Mandarin. Well, she was certainly frank. But, I guess I had disturbed their peace. I'm real sorry!
I was laughing at a stupid crap recently. Last Wednesday, I saw a junior hitting my classmate and wished her happy lunar new year. Jocelyn and I were crapping that there is such thing as New Year Bash! -.- And and and ya! At first I wished Jocelyn happy new year, she wished me happy new month, then I wished her happy new week, then she wished me happy new day, then I wished her happy new hour, then she wished me happy new minute and finally I wished her happy new second. She burst into laughter! Hahahas! We started wishing everyone happy new second. Kind of tired of wishing everyone happy new second! Sylvia was wondering how we will be counting down for new second. I told her by counting down milli second. -.-'" ~ Crap!
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An add-on to yesterday's tiny grey words. [But dear readers, don't get offended when you see the word "you" inside. I'm not refering to you, unless you are the "you" I'm refering. You should know yourself. ]
I guess, people will think I'm cold blooded. But I don't know. I am not regret or guilty at all for erasing all the memories. Well, I am mean. But do you only came to me when you need me to do you a favour, when you are really depressed or when you heard from other's that I had cried. Well, that's the basic reason why I don't feel regret at all. But I really don't get why you blamed me for answering the call. Perhaps I had disturbed your mind for those few months. I guess if I spoke nicely to you when I answered your call, you would not had blamed me for that. But since it's already over, just could you forget that? You shall live in your own world and I live in mine. We shall no longer get affected by each other. You may jolly well forget about those stupid gifts and chocolates that were given to you and all favour that was done.
lots of love @
16:58
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Friday, February 23, 2007
I need help
Well, just got scolded by my mum.
I was just too tired just now. I was totally restless. I just collapsed onto my bed and dozed off till 8pm. When I woke up, I was confused if it's already morning or it's just evening. But in between my sleep, it was somehow being disturbed by calls and messages. I did not reply the messages but I answered the calls. I was so tired and I just realised that I was talking rubbish to those people who called me. Feel so stupid! Haha.
I'll be having Physics extra lesson tomorrow at 10am and afterwards, I need to rush to Nan Chiau Primary School. Luckily, I already had enough rest today. But these whole week, I have restless nights. Every night, I could not fall asleep in peace. A mosquito had been disturbing me the whole night. I did not really bit me but it kept flying by my ears. ARHHH! No matter how I covered my ears, the buzzing sound was so loud!
I almost fell asleep when I was doing the test paper this morning. The Elective Geography paper is simply a disaster. The paper was easy, BUT I did not manage my time properly. I did not finish the last question. In fact, I only wrote 3 sentences (which are craps), and "PENS DOWN!", said the invigilator. Oh well, 8 marks have fluttered away. I did not really studied the section on case study. Fortunately, it was not tested.
I think I will not score well for my English test. My mind was wandering elsewhere during the test and I almost fell asleep. Arggh!
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Do you know how one will feel if he or she has put in a lot of effort on the master piece yet it was landed in the rubbish bin? Do you know how one will feel if he or she has contributed an expensive curtain yet it was also landed in the rubbish bin? Do you know how one will feel if he or she has lost her favourite piece of artwork which brought he or she honours in the past? Do you know how one will feel if his or her expensive musical instrument was broken by someone? Do you know how one will feel when he or she has lost the wallet filled with unforgettable memories?
The feeling is really bad for a negative person like me. I still could not get over such things. I cried sometimes when I thought of those. Sigh. I seemed cheerful to people out there. But I am really dull when I was left alone especially at home. I used to be cheerful at all times. Where's the cheerful Qianyong?! Can time rewind so that I could go back to the past so all those bad things would not happen?
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I think that I was somehow being accused for something stupid. I was blamed for answering the call from that person. Well, I did not know that the person called me in mistake. The person's msn nick was somehow refering to that incident (to me, it happened like decades or centuries ago). It happened in last year 26th November which was around 3 months ago. What do you expect me to do? To rewind time and I don't bother to answer the call? Sigh. But you didn't seem to call the wrong person. In fact I was so rude to you that hurt you a lot? Am I so mean to delete every single testimonial I had written for you in the past and any other memorable stuff during our cold war? The war had ended quietly and we seem to be strangers. Am I too mean that I am not guilty of what I had done?
* Help me! ='(
lots of love @
21:31
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
Wish Me good luck
I did not have a nightmare last night. But I did not sleep well. I don't know why. My father wants me to kick of my bad habbit of sleeping late. Everyday, I go online around 10pm and turn off the computer at 11.05pm. I end up not falling asleep.
I was really very sleepy. But I couldn't fall asleep in class. [In fact, I'm not supposed to.] I am sitting in the 1st row and the center column of the class (according to register) as it is common test tomorrow. (YA! COMMON TEST! WHY DO I STILL COME ONLINE RIGHT NOW?!)
Well, actually, I wanted to write a birthday essay to Sindy which I had promised last year. Her birthday is in 2 days time. But I am not in the writing mood. (Contridicting! I'm blogging right now!) Oh yah! Today's Arthur's birthday. Happy Birthday Arthur.
Mr Tien was quite annoyed today during Chemistry lesson. The boys weren't performing well this morning during the verbal test. Today's Mother Tongue lesson was mainly doing corrections. Physics lesson, I teased Mr Foo! AHAH! He said that I am much noisier sitting in front! During Mathematics, mainly going through A & E Maths practice. The D&T room was so cold. My nerve endings and hypothalamus did detected the stimulus but my hair erector muscles, arterioles did not react properly to the stimulus. Arggh... I told Jocelyn that how I wish that I am black so that I would have absorbed more heat (physics). English lesson was mainly reading articles and having lesson with Cheryl Fox.
I did not bring my wallet to school. So I have to walk under the scorching sun home. The afternoon was balmy. I need to go home early. I need to study for my Common Test. Well, Stella and I were cooked by the sun. Stella's water was heated and I think it would be hot enough to make coffee. My shoes and socks are black which means they are good absorber of heat and my feet were seriously overheated. Arggh!
I was so tired when I reached home. I reached home before 3pm. The first time I reached home that early this year! I wanted to study my Elective Geography but my brain could not absorb anything. I was really tired. I fell asleep half way through. While I was revising, I realised that many key points were not taught! Oh I'm so dead!
Wish Qianyong good luck for her common test!
lots of love @
21:48
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Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Sleepy Me!
I'm so sleepy today! **YAWN** I keep yawning!
I did not sleep well last night! I was being frightened by someone before my bed time. I wanted to sleep early as school starts today and I need to wake up early. But I couldn't. I kept tossing & turning in my bed. I just didn't dare to fall asleep. I'm afraid of nightmare! I had a nightmare! And once I had nightmare, I would not dare to fall asleep again. I finally could fell asleep at 4.30am. My sleep was disturbed by my alarm clock. Time to wake up! Arggh!
Did not have enough sleep. I could hardly pay attention in class. I kept falling asleep. I had my 2.4km run today. Well, it was quite badly done. Not up to my standard. Never mind, it's a warm up after the four days long break.
I need to clear my under desk by today. I carried all the textbooks home. They were so heavy. I wanted to walk home today actually. At first, I thought of calling my dad to fetch me (in a joking manner), I had certainly forgotten that my dad wasn't working today. I took bus home.
**Yawn**
Hope Qianyong sleeps well tonight. Unfortunately, she has a lot of homework to complete.
Each time I talk to you, my heart beats faster.
Whenever your head turn towards my direction, I pretend stared at the floor.
I just don't know why.
I see you only once in the blue moon.
Now I always look foward to the day I may see you.
Why?
I don't know.
I had never felt that in the past.
Perhaps I'm thinking too much. =X
lots of love @
19:38
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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
So High!
Woohoo! I'm so high up in the milky way! (I'm not going to eleborate on that. If you are interested to know, ask me personally.)
Yes! Qianyong is so high up! Can you see me? I'm much higher than the moon! **Wave** [I think only Shitstead and Min Min understands. The rest know nuts about what I am talking about.]
All right, something out of that.
I went to Mr Low's house today. I was supposed to meet Yong Xuan they all in Compass Point at 9am sharp. Jia Ling told me not to be late. I thought I was not the earliest. End up I reached there pretty early, around 8.45am. I was the earliest. Geraldine & Huiyu reached there on time. Lynn managed to reached there by 9.02am despite oversleeping. Jiang Da reached around 9.15am. Xue Yan & Min Min reached there around 9.25am. Jia Ling reached at 9.30am. WHERE'S YONG XUAN & CHUEN YONG?! They were like so late! I went to washroom and then to basement. It was 9.45am. Finally they had reached. Well, next time, I'll reach 45 minutes late if I have to meet them. Yong Xuan was the so called 'organiser' but he was late and he took taxi alone to meet someone. ARWW!
So we set off at 9.50 and took the bus 161 which we only waited for less than 10 minutes. Jie Ting boarded the bus half way through. We reached Woodlands Bus Interchange around 10.20am. We waited for the bus 912 and reached there at 10.50am. GOSH! We were supposed to meet at 9am but we reached there at 10.50am. Oh well, the Nan Hwa dancers were there already and there was a heavy traffic jam in Mr Low's house. The living room and bedroom and study room were fulled. We were left with kitchen. At least a kitchen!
I remembered that I was the earliest batch of people last year and the whole living room was liked ours.
Everyone was playing with poker cards. I am weak at that! I don't gamble. So I watched the people playing and eating. We hardly get out of kitchen as the living room was really full. Those people who wanted to visit the washroom or throwing rubbish had hard time make their way to the dustbin and washroom.
We had pizza for lunch. Some people left and we could finally get out of the kitchen. Our turn to play poker cards and watched television programme. I felt as if I was stucked on the sofa. I refused to go home and especially when Sufang, Meiyi & Jeremy arrived. It's impossible to leave when they just reached. So never mind. We continued with our poker cards and we chatted with Mr Low. They had second round of pizza then we left.
I reached home around 4pm. That's all!
lots of love @
19:07
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Monday, February 19, 2007
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
**Cough**
I'm so tired! Just came back from my grandpa's place. What a long distance I had travelled from there back home. My mum was chatting with her siblings till so late despite irritated by my groaning! I kept telling her that I wanna go home & sleep. (Yet I am using the computer right now!) I need to wake up early tomorrow. Arggh...
I was suppose to reach Fuzhi at 9.30 am this morning but we overslept especially my sister! She woke up at 9! Arghh... We were so late and reached there at 11am. Arghh. Never mind. At least we went. After that, we were heading to my grandpa's apartment but my dad took the wrong way resulting reaching there late! It's okay.
We thought that we were able to go swimming but it was drizzling. Hmmm. We had our lunch. Going to my grandpa's place was somehow like visiting the kiddy land. I spent most of the time with my cousins who are so much younger than me. The oldest cousin was 6 years younger than me. The rest was much much younger. But I prefer hanging around with kids to entertaining the adults. No wonder people say that I'm kiddy. I went to IMM. I had not seen the change till today. Not much difference in the inside. It's just that there was an extension and the parking lots were gone. Went to do some shopping with my relatives for dinner's ingredients. I helped up with the dinner preparation and baby sitting. it was so tiring! But fun of course if not I would not have done them.
Well, I gotta sleep! NIGHT!
lots of love @
23:05
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Sunday, February 18, 2007
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!
HAPPY PIG YEAR!
Yes, it's Pig year. I have not been blogging since Valentine's Day due to my packed schedule.
14.02.2007 - Valentine's Day
Well, morning practice was cancelled that day. Despite being discouraged to celebrate Valentine's Day, I went to school early in the morning to distribute sweets and chocolates. The lessons were quite relaxing. MR KOH CRUSHED QI JUN'S FERERRO ROCHE! Wahahahahs! Flatten roche. Hmmm. We had beep test during PE lesson. I managed to reach stage 7. I thought I might be panting or I might have fainted. Hmmm. No one was paying attention during Social Study lesson. I was stuffing chocolates into my mouth and munching during the lesson. Well, during recess I was receiving sweets and chocolates from people. I stayed in class to rush for class decoration. Chinese lesson was the most relaxing one. Mrs Hoo shared a lot of stories with us. Then we have 2 periods of Biology. We told Ms Neo to give us a break and let us complete the decoration. She was quite reluctant to do so, but we managed to persude her. She let us watch the video on total defence. We had and extra Chemistry lesson after school. Mr Tien wanted to complete Electrolysis. But ended up Mr Ting kept visiting our class. We were very tired too. After the lesson, we continued with class decoration. I had my valentine's day in class. I was so touched that many people helped me with that. I stayed till 6pm and walked home.
15.02.2007 - Total defence day
Nothing special happened during lesson time except for the total defence sirence in the noon. Oh ya, wait, I cancelled the morning practice for that day as everyone was so tired! (The main reason was -- I wanted to rush my class decoration.) So selfish of me! All right. I managed to finish it before the judging. It's a bless that we had 2 periods of Mathematics lesson on Thursday but Mr Koh was not in school and I skiped my recess. Everything was so last minute. We had completed everything finally! Phew! After the judging, I could not get to have my lunch. I need to go for dance practice. Some secondary one juniors are certainly horrible. They paid no respect to their secondary two seniors. Now they still tried to climb over my head. But too bad! They were so chaotic. Never mind, I'll teach them a lesson next time. We had SYF practice & CNY practice. After everything, I was so tired. I felt extremely dizzy all of a sudden! The whole world was spinning fast -- I realised that I had not taken my breakfast & lunch for 3 days for class decoration. Something crops up in my family after that which I am not going to eleborate. I wept the whole night and my eyes were sore till next morning.
16.02.2007 - Chinese New Year Celebration
I went to school in the morning with my sore eyes. I was late for morning practice. It was the performance that day yet my eyelids were not balanced and sore. Oh dear! Sigh! Fiona had a hard time putting on eyeshadow for me. Well, my chou tangled up during the performance but I continue smiling. Hehe... I watch the concert after dance performance. I sat all the way at the back of the hall. There were some old folks there from an old folks home. I entertained them. There was a very cute Indian lady... She kept talking to me. She told me that she had a very pretty daughter but she dumped her in the home. :( The concert were okay, but I liked the part where the teachers were singing for us. Our Vice-principal Mr Tay rocks! He was so modern and his singing is great. I stayed in the dance studio after the whole celebration for picture taking and continue dancing. We removed the make-ups and got changed and then go home!
17.02.2007 - Chinese New Year Eve
Went for reunion dinner, and I'm lazy to eleborate.
18.02.2007 - Chinese New Year Day 1
It's today, so far, I went to Punggol Beach. Going to granny's house later!
Bye!
lots of love @
12:57
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007
"Happy" Total Defence Day in advance
Had my English remedial after school. I enjoyed the remedial. I was rushing for class decoration after that. I WAS BEING RUSHED & I DISLIKED THE FEELINGS OF BEING HURRIED! I was unwell and someone always said "Qianyong!!! Hurry UP!!!" (Well, as if you had really done something much.) She always gets stress over such matter but worrying doesn't work you see! One must do something with the hands instead of mouth and worrying.
I wasn't concentrating. Shitstead & I went to watch soccer match. (The soccer match was not interesting to me.) Well, I went upstairs again and left the school after 5.55pm. Shitstead's mother sent me to Compass Point. I shopped for Valentine's Chocolate.
I went to Cold Storage. It was filled with the Valentine's atmosphere. The whole section of chocolates were so packed and Ferrer Roche was OUT OF STOCK!!! Arww!!! Never mind. I bought another one. I went up to Popular to get golden paint. The queue was so long! Many were queueing up to pay for valentine's wrapping papers. I decided to tried my luck to get Ferrer Roche at 7-Eleven and Watson. They only left with BIG boxes of them and the queue was long. Forget it! So I went home.
Actually, our principal said in yesterday's morning assembly that he strongly discourages us to celebrate valentine's day. He brain washed us by telling us the importance of total defence day. Well, many said that we'll "celebrate" total defence day in a day advance by giving & receiving gifts! Wahahahhas!
Well, "Happy" Total Defence Day in advance! (Actually, I mean Happy Valentine's Day In Advance!) **GRINS!
lots of love @
19:55
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Monday, February 12, 2007
CRAPS
I enjoyed reading certain people's blog somehow. It's not the content I'm interested, it was the language used. Wide range of descriptive words use to brush up my English. I can't wait to get out of English remedial. I have gotten in as I did not do my journal properly. Awww.. Never mind! WORK HARD QIANYONG!!!!!!
I went to NUS UCC today again. I was suppose to report to school by 6.45am but I had overslept. I reached school about 6.50am. Phew! Thank goodness, they hadn't left! What a heavy traffic at CTE!!! The bus left the school at 6.57am and yet reached NUS UCC around 8.12am. We were 12 minutes late and the people there waste our time some more!!!! Hahas. Struggling out the heavy traffic made me sicked! All right, at least the rehearsal was not tiring. We reached school around 10.30am. Too early... It was Mrs Hoo's lesson but I did not bring my Chinese textbook and worksheets. I can't wait till recess! I need a break! The other lessons after recess was quite slack.
Elaine jie jie & Lynn mei mei made me something great to eat. Elaine made CHOCOLATE CAKES FOR ME! LYNN MADE ME CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES! YUMMY! CHOCOLATE ROCKS!
After school was liked totally blank. Shitstead was crazy... She went crazy, sad and crazy again. Funny shit. After school was like happy at first, then angry for a while till shitstead's happy again, then mood kinda spoilt when I received a call from someone (I'm lazy to mention the person). GOT SCOLDED AGAIN! RWAR!!!
Okay, overall quite okay.
Hey... Cheer up (:
lots of love @
19:56
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Friday, February 09, 2007
Idioticity - negative infinite
Totally disappointment as the situation was described. The scenary was so beautiful and romantic yet everything had gone when the eyes were opened. It was much sweeter than it had happenend in real life.
His life seems miserable & filled with despair. It seems that nothing can satisfy him.
How I wish that people can see something beyond their thoughts. This will overcome the unhappiness. Why are people being more affected by bad news than good news? Things are so complicated. People are hunting for stress, unhappiness, disatisfaction, anger and trouble. Smile hardly grows from the heart but on the surface which would be wiped off easily.
GCE O Level results were out this afternoon. Nan Chiau High School had a bundle of joy.
Chemistry - 65% Distinction
Elementary Mathematics - 100% Distinction
Additional Mathematics - MSG of 1.7
Chinese - Should be very very good!
Well, the rest I'm not so sure. 100% passing rate, more than 80% are qualified for Junior Collage. It will be my turn next year! School will have much higher expectation on us. Gee! I must work harder.
I could feel the anxiety when I saw my seniors coming back to school to collect their. They were so excited.
Anyway, I want to NUS UCC this afternoon for SYF rehearsal. Before that I was like a patient who was not suppose to discharge from hospital. I was very restless, giddy and I had difficulty breathing. I was unconcious on bus. I fell asleep on Stella's laps. I went into the dressing room. It was similar to those in Kallang Theatre but it had hospital's smell. The rehearsal had started and Madam Ong had fully made use the 2 hours given! After the rehearsal, I had regained my energy and became hyper active again! WOOHOO! Craps...
Well... Now, I'm at home, meddling about other's results! Tata!
lots of love @
20:45
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Wednesday, February 07, 2007
SICKED
I went to bed around 11.30pm last night. I hardly could hardly fall alsleep. When I finally reached my dream land, I felt some one hugging me tightly. It was my sister! She's home finally. I cried. I missed her so much!
Well, anyway, I was feeling giddy this whole afternoon. I fell asleep after school while waiting for Stella. When I woke up, almost everyone had left. Stella had left too. Arggh! I my feet were so heavy. I could not lift up my feet when I was walking up the stairs. I feel as if I'm floating right now. My vital capacity is so low. The volume of air I breathe in is such a small amount. Once I shut my eyes, I feel as if I am going to faint. ARGGH!
I dragged my feet to Compass Point to hunt for Stella. Elaine & Sylvia were there too. Three of them were taking care of me.
I had been crying for the whole afternoon after I woke up. I just could not control my tears. I told myself not to cry and be strong. But my tear glands did not obey me. Sadness came to me all of a sudden. But I don't know why I feel sad. Neither do I know that why I cried. People were telling me joke and I am laughing and crying at the same time. I wonder why...
lots of love @
19:38
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Hmm..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYNN!!!
I am super duper duper duper tired! I almost collapsed on my way home. I walked home alone as I requested to. Stella had already left before I was released for Chemistry titration. Elaine asked me to keep her company. I rejected as my Ezlink card has not much money left and I may need to school by myself. The sun was burning hot. There was no one else along the path.
My eyes filled with tears all of a sudden. I realised that I have been placing myself really high in my heart. In my mind, I have been emphasising on myself. ME ME ME... As if I'm more important then anyone else.
Last year, I got to know local 2 girls who are currently studying in Taiwan -- Fuzhi Edu Park. They are around my age, yet they know their values and they are very compassionate. I am so envious of them. They can get to have the best education and they know their values. They know what true happiness about and they don't mind living in hardship. They get to wash toilets, plough the fields and climb the trees without complaining. They are clever, happy and fit. Most importantly, they have a super great heart. Unlike me, I am struggling with materialistic life and often very unhappy. I find myself petty and narrow minded.
They are now back from their New Year Vacation. Hope to see them soon. I am so glad that I get to know them and I must learn from them. I hope that my younger brother and sister will get into Fuzhi Edu Park. I want them to be one of the best and happiest kids.
My mother, younger brother and sister will be back tonight. Hooray.
I have been doing those laundry work these few days. Kinda enjoy it despite not enough time to complete my work.
lots of love @
17:57
... I believe it's possible
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Saturday, February 03, 2007
Blue Moon
Today was quite tiring. The who group made Mr Low angry. The whole group was not cooperative as last time. Mr Low wasn't paid for choreographing. He had to spend his own money on our props and costumes. Why school is not willing to let us participate in the event? Why school is unwilling to cooperate?
I don't know.
It is disappointing. I hope those who participate in the performance had learnt their lessons today.
I have lots of other things to say. But I'm lazy.
Don't bother about what I had written at the bottom. Don't bother to figure it out. I guess only shitstead will understand what I mean and what I had written. Sorry.
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Where's the blue moon I have been waiting to appear? Everytime when I am looking up the night sky, I will search for blue moon. But what I see are almost the same -- it's either stars, clouds, full moon, half moon, crescent or wane -- those moons I have seen are not blue. If there is such thing as blue moon in the sky, I will never bother to search for it. I'll just being dumb. Seeing the blue moon is long way away.
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There is nothing else I wish to know besides what you are thinking. You seldom make me figure out what you are thinking. This is the hardest question ever. The only person who can answer the question is you. I'm tired. I don't wish to guess anymore. The blue moon did not appear today. Why? I am waiting for blue moon in the sky.
lots of love @
21:31
... I believe it's possible
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Friday, February 02, 2007
WEIRD ME!
I am seriously tired. I have been repeating that I am tired for recent blog entries. But it is certainly true. I'M TIRED! ARGGH! Dance practices are going to be much more intensive. Morning practice commence next Monday. 7am - 7.25am. Excluding the flag raising ceremony, we have less then 25 minutes of trainings and we are sharing the same space as International Dance. From next week onwards, we will have 2 hours and 15 minutes extra trainings. I am going to collapse soon! We also have Chinese New Year concert rehearsals. Dance is fun, but my health could no longer take the pressure. Madam Ong has been stressing on our techniques.
I'm very tired. I dragged my feet home. The house atmosphere is as quiet as a mouse. I miss the noise made by my sister & younger brother, I miss my mother's nags. They are now in Taiwan already I think. I regret that I did not reach home early yesterday to keep my sister company. I reached home around 8 yesterday and I had a lot of homeworks. I made my sister cried last night. They took the ten o'clock flight this morning. I was still in school. I could not get to wave goodbye to her. I have go on without them for 4 more days.
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You seemed sad. Why? I wish to ask you. But I am not that bold enough. The only think I hope for is to see the blue moon in the sky tomorrow.
lots of love @
23:21
... I believe it's possible
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