Dear NCHS ex-students (2007 Cohort),

1) You can collect your SGC (School Graduation Certificate) starting from today (26 Jun 2008) from the General Office, and subsequently on weekdays (8 am – 4.30 pm)

If you are back for this Sat (28 June 2008)'s event - NCHS SHINES IN HARMONY, you may also collect your SGC, from 9 am to 12 noon.

2) Please bring along your identification card for SGC collection.

3) Upon the receipt of your SGC, pls
(a) check to verify that you have received the correct number of pages
(b) check the contents in the SGC and verify that the information is correct
(c) check the condition of the SGC
(d) make a report, immediately, to Mr Bey (AM2) if you discover any error
(e) keep your SGC safely

I got the information above from Stella's email. Hope NCHS 07 graduate could take note of it. (: I miss school. I miss JJ... I miss darling QIAN TING, Wen Jie, Xu Yao, Dionne the president, Isabella, Wan Ting, Jin Xian, Salina, OG9... etc etc!!! ROAR!!!

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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Stop holding on

I viewed one of my good friend's friendster profile. I shan't mention who. I realised he was attached. Well, that's not the matter. It was oblivious to me all along that he's attached and and... I messaged him. That's not the main problem. There was once he was dating with his girlfriend. I met him. I suspected that they were together but both of them gave me an innocent look. The girl even gave me her seat and I spoke to him for so long. Ah!!! SORRY! I didn't mean to interfere their affair. HAHAHA. But anyway, I was quite shocked.

Well, here's another affair! I felt a blustery wind blowing into my heart. I was quite flustered with his actions actually. His silence was kind of horrible. Did I irritate him? Did I make him exasperated that he doesn't wish to entertain me? I made it obvious that I'M ACCEPTING PEACE. But why I took initiative for all these while but to no avail? I guess those endeavours were futile ones! Gloom and guilt gutted my heart actually because I was the one who started all these fuss and now both of us have to salvage the situation. SORRY SORRY SORRY! I think I've been too frivolous at times. I don't want to turn him into second "Aiyo". In the end, I might turn out showing my sacarsm again. ): I don't wanna be sarcastic! I writhed when the embarassing flashbacks re-acnacted in my head. Although I don't have to struggle to keep a rein on the pain assailing my heart, I want a peaceful ending. Everything was too abrupt to me. Seriously, I couldn't fathom why he chooses to ignore. Or maybe he's too busy to respond. Anyway, thank you very much for all these while. (:

lots of love @ 19:20
... I believe it's possible

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BORED BORED and BORED

I MISS SCHOOL!

People may be thinking that I'm crazy. Haha. Because JC students are having Mid-year or Common Test and I could have the luxury of staying at home and rest. Hahahaha. I was caught BORED and SICKED and this was what happened. My candid shot was taken:
Crap. I look so retarded and fatigue in this picture. I'm too bored that I went to edit previous posts. I think those who are reading my entries through multiply couldn't see what I've edited.

lots of love @ 12:14
... I believe it's possible

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Be filial (:

I found the following from my dad's email. Well, it's in traditional Chinese characters. So those whose computer can't the character's encoding, I'm so sorry!

如果你在一個平凡的家庭長大
如果你的父母還健在
不管你有沒有和他們同住
如果有一天，你發現媽媽的廚房不再像以前那麼乾淨
如果有一天，你發現家中的碗筷好像沒洗乾淨
如果有一天，你發現母親的鍋子不再雪亮
如果有一天，你發現父親的花草樹木已漸荒廢
如果有一天，你發現家中的地板衣櫃經常沾滿灰塵
如果有一天，你發現母親煮的菜太鹹太難吃
如果有一天，你發現父母經常忘記關瓦斯
如果有一天，你發現老父老母的一些習慣不再是習慣時，就像他們不再想要天天洗澡時
如果有一天，你發現父母不再愛吃青脆的蔬果
如果有一天，你發現父母愛吃煮得爛爛的菜
如果有一天，你發現父母喜歡吃稀飯
如果有一天，你發現他們過馬路行動反應都慢了
如果有一天，你發現在吃飯時間他們老是咳個不停
千萬別誤以為他們感冒或著涼，(那是吞嚥神經老化的現象)

如果有一天，你發覺他們不再愛出門…
如果有這麼一天
我要告訴你，你要警覺父母真的已經老了
器官已經退化到需要別人照料了
如果你不能照料，請你替他們找人照料
並請你請你千萬千萬要常常探望
不要讓他們覺得被遺棄了

每個人都會老
父母比我們先老
我們要用角色互換的心情去照料他
才會有耐心、才不會有怨言
當父母不能料理自己的時候，為人子女要警覺，
他們可能會大小便失禁、可能會很多事都做不好，

如果房間有異味，可能他們自己也聞不到，
請不要嫌他髒或嫌他臭，為人子女的只能幫他清理，
並請維持他們的『自尊心』。

當他們不再愛洗澡時，
請抽空定期幫他們洗身體，
因為縱使他們自己洗也可能洗不乾淨。

當我們在享受食物的時候，
請替他們準備一份大小適當、容易咀嚼的一小碗，
因為他們不愛吃可能是牙齒咬不動了。

從我們出生開始，
餵奶換尿布、生病的不眠不休照料、
教我們生活基本能力、供給讀書、吃喝玩樂和補習，
關心和行動永遠都不停歇。

如果有一天，
他們真的動不了了，
角色互換不也是應該的嗎？

為人子女者要切記，
看父母就是看自己的未來，
孝順要及時。

如果有一天，
你像他們一樣老時，你希望怎麼過？
現在的你，
是在當單身寄生蟲、還是已婚雙料或多料寄生蟲？
你留意過自己的父母嗎？
樹欲靜而風不止、子欲養而親不在
您的父母還有多少時間等您?

lots of love @ 23:07
... I believe it's possible

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Quiz Quiz Quiz.

I'm all alone at home. Sigh. I miss school. I'm very sicked today. I have to rush a camp proposal before I leave.

I visited Wan Ting's blog and I realised I was tagged with a quiz.

1. Do you have wide groups of friends?
People from JJ- OG9, Dance, 08L01; B&W, NCHS Soaring Wings #12, ZhaBo's, NuEr, some other cliques. Haha.


2. If you’re in trouble, will your friends ‘fly’ over to help you immediately?
Some (:


3. Will you sacrifice your most precious thing for your friends?
My most precious thing can be shared! =D


4. Do you believe in Best friends, BFFs , or that everyone’s equal?
Everyone are great and special xD


5. Do you think that a straight & a woman can just be a platonic friends?
Why not?! (:


6. Do you have a male friend that you can trust with almost everything?
Ya. (:


7. Do you think that friends should tell each other everything?
case by case basis. But I tell Wan Er jie jie everything


8. If your friends are in trouble, what will you do?
Listen and comfort. If possible, I give advices.


9. In future, if your friends get married and ask you to be their best men/bridesmaid, will you agree?
Of course! (:


10. What if your enemy calls you one day to make peace?
I'll be happy! =D


11. What will you do to a friend whom you trust deeply, betrayed you?
Heartbroken? Haha. Wan Er jie jie won't betray me.


12. If your friend snatch away your boyfriend, will you still be a friend or hate him/her completely?
See how she snatch lo. Haha. But it won't happen.


13. What if there is a boy/girl that have liked your friend for quite some time, tells you that he/she needs your help to win the heart of your friend, will you help him/her?
See what kinda guy he is. If he's nice, I'll help. (:


14. Do your parents think that your friends are a bad influence?
Nope (:


15.What will you tell your parents if they asked you to transfer school, which means losing all your closest friends?
Can my friends transfer with me? (:


16. If your friend organize a once in a life time party, but your family doesn’t allow you to go? Will you sulk/throw a temper/sneak out/Don’t go?
I'll be slapped if I sulk, throw a temper and sneak out. Hmmm. I'll try to convince my mum to let me go!


17. How will you describe your friendship relationship with your friends?
Great!


18. Define friendship
Going through all the hardship and laughter together and accept one another (:


19. Name 20 people whom you can think right now.Don’t read the questions until you named the 20 people.At the end, choose 5 people to do this.
1. Wan Ting
2. Jocelyn Shitstead
3. Stella
4. Winnie
5. Min Min
6. Hui Yu
7. Xue Yan
8. Jessie
9. Cherylc
10. Chong Yang
11. Sindy
12. Qian Ting
13. Salina
14. Denyse
15. Isabella
16. Jerry
17. Jue Han
18. Huai Ching
19. Ying Quan
20. Nicholas



How did you meet no. 4?
Winnie: Dance in NCHS!


What will you do if you never meet no. 1?
Wan Ting: Dance in JJ will be bored


What if no. 9 & no. 20 dated?
Cherylc & Nicholas: erm. They just knew each other last Saturday. I highly doubt so.


Will no. 6 & no. 17 date?
Huiyu&JueHan: very impossible la. they don't even know each other!


Describe no. 3.
Stella: BLUR. CUTE. HYPER ACTIVE. Nice to talk to. (:


Describe no. 7.
Xue Yan: Very hard working and understanding.


Do you know any of no.12’s family?
Qian Ting: sadly, nope


What will you do if no.18 confess to you that he / she likes you?
Huai Ching: hahahaha. Nice joke man. Impossible la.


What language does no.15 speaks?
Isabella: english and chinese


How old is no.16?
Jerry: 17


When is the last time you spoke to no.13?
Salina: 19 June!


Who is no.2 favorite band or singer?
Shitstead: ah! SHITSTEAD! I don't know ):


Would you ever date no. 4?
Winnie: WHY NOT?! I miss her!


Would you ever date no. 1?
Wan Ting: YES Of couse! =D


Is no. 19 single?
Ying Quan: Eh, I don't know =X


Would you ever be in a relationship with no.11?
Sindy: haha. nope. But she's me special friend! =D


School of no. 3?
Stella: Nan Chiau High School


Where does no. 6 live?
HuiYu: hougang! =D


What is your favourite thing about no.5?
MinMin: Lovable and understanding =D


Have you seen no. 2 naked?
Shitstead: Erps. No. Haha


What is no. 8’s nickname?
Jessie: I always call her by her name =X


Next 5 person to do the survey.
Stella
Sindy
Chong Yang
Denyse
Min Min

lots of love @ 11:10
... I believe it's possible

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Monday, June 23, 2008

Quotes, Quotes and Quotes! =D

"Speak a little or a lot,
but tell me just the gist.
The gist is what I want.
What use is a lot of rhetoric?"


Realisation: The Senseless Cycle of Emotions

"Why get cyclically emotional over the cycle of emotions?" - stonepeace

There is a cheery new driver for the bus service I take. He greets almost every boarding passenger with a "Hello, good morning!" He also thanks alighting ones with an equally chirpy "Have a nice day!" At first, some frowned at his enthusiasm, which seemed unfounded - as if he shouldn't be so happy. Later, most got used to the "jolly good fellow", even smiling to reciprocate his courtesy. He was after all, just trying to share some joy.

Sometimes, for whatever reason, he doesn't greet some boarding passengers. When he encounters some who were previously greeted, who are then not greeted, they lose their previously ready smile, and frown at him instead - as if the driver was being rude by not greeting, as if he owed them a greeting. Yet sometimes, he greets them. Bewildered, the passengers get caught in a cycle of pleasure and displeasure, indifference and indignation!

The driver had no obligation to greet anyone even once in the first place. And the passengers had no obligation to be adversely affected by his greetings or the lack of them. The mind can be irrationally fickle, fluctuating swiftly and "mindlessly" between qualities of curiosity, surprise, irritation, gratitude, kindness, desire, anger... This can be as disturbing as it is exhausting! Come what may, why not just calmly smile the? - Shen Shi'an


"We have met the enemy, and he is us." - Pogo

"The worse of the two is he,
who, when abused, retaliates.
One who does not retaliate,
wins a battle hard to win."

"Be willing to do [whatever should be done].
Be happy to bear [whatever should be borne]"

"Conquer the angry by love.
Conquer the ill-natured by goodness.
Conquer the miser with generosity.
Conquer the liar with truth."

"You can only lose what you cling.
You can never hold what you cling."
- Anonone

"Repentance in thought, word and deed is to be sorry, to say sorry, and to show you are sorry." - stonepeace

"One who idles from day to day is a consumer of life.
One who is active and useful is a creator of life."


Realisation: Being a Survivor of Survivor Guilt

May great strength, not great weakness, arise from great grief. - stonepeace

A mother is suffering from survivor guilt. She had sent her young daughter for a regular swimming lesson... not knowing it would be the last time. At first, she blamed the teacher for not taking care of her. But as the instructor explained, her rebellious daughter had strayed off secretly from the class to the deep end - out of playfulness. This led her to blame herself, for not having disciplined her well enough to listen to the teacher's instructions. Is this love?

She had forgotten her motivation of urging her child to sign up for the class in the first place. She felt that it was important to learn to swim from a young age - to prevent any possible mishap of accidental drowning. Wallowing in misery for her loss, she focuses on the bitter irony, though she should recall her pure intentions instead. She had expected the swimming lessons to discipline her, to curb her rebelliousness, while letting her play too. This is love.

What happened was an accident, that no one wished for - not the mother, instructor or the daughter. If there was anyone able to prevent it, he or she would. I have no words to console the mother, except for these - "If your daughter is still around, she would want to say sorry for her mischief. But more than that, it saddens her to see you grieve endlessly for her - for she wants you to be well and happy." This is love. – Shen Shi'an

"Rejecting loss rejects peace.
Accepting loss accepts peace." - stonepeace

"True love not only sets others free, it sets you free too." - stonepeace

lots of love @ 16:21
... I believe it's possible

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Sunday, June 22, 2008

Good food

I was at home almost the entire day. School reopens tomorrow. I miss school, I miss my friends. If I have to go to school tomorrow, I'll be whining non-stop because I may not have finished my homework. I went to Punggol Park with my parents and my elder brother for our evening walk. This is the first time after 5 years.

I MISS THIS SCENE

The following article is taken from the Straits Time.

"MUSCLES DO NOT NEED MUCH PROTEIN: About 20g is enough for an 80kg man. And the protein, like that in these soya products, need not be consumed soon after exercising."

June 21, 2008

FITNESS

Real food is as good

Experts say 'recovery products' like energy bars are over-rated

NEW YORK - DR MARK Tarnopolsky, a muscle-physiology researcher at McMaster University in Canada and a physician, knows all about the exhortations by supplement makers and many nutritionists on what to eat and when to eat it for optimal performance.

The idea is that you are supposed to consume carbohydrates and proteins in a magical four-to-one ratio during endurance events like a long run or bike ride, and right after. The belief is that such nutritional diligence will improve your performance and speed your recovery.

Dr Tarnopolsky, a 45-year-old trail runner and adventure racer, might be expected to seize upon the nutritional advice. He won the Ontario trail running series in 2004, 2005 and 2006.

So might his colleague, Stuart Phillips, a 41-year-old associate professor of kinesiology at McMaster who played rugby for Canada's national team and now plays it for fun. He also runs, lifts weights and studies nutrition and performance.

In fact, neither researcher uses energy drinks or energy bars regularly. They just drink water, and eat real food. Dr Tarnopolsky drinks fruit juice; Dr Phillips eats fruit. And neither feels a need to ingest a special combination of protein and carbohydrates within a short window of time, a few hours after exercising.

There are grains of truth to the nutrition advice, they and other experts say. But, as so often happens in sport, those grains of truth have been expanded into dictums and have formed the basis for an entire industry in 'recovery' products.

Here is what is known about proteins, carbohydrates and performance.

During exercise, muscles stop the biochemical reactions used to maintain themselves, such as replacing and resynthesising the proteins needed for day-to-day activities. It is not that exercise is damaging your muscles; it is that the muscles halt the maintenance process until exercise is over.

To do this maintenance, muscles must make protein. And to do so, they need to absorb amino acids, the constituent parts of proteins, from the blood. Just after exercise, perhaps for a period no longer than a couple of hours, the protein-building processes of muscle cells are especially receptive to amino acids.

That means that if you consume protein, your muscles will use it to quickly replenish proteins that were not made during exercise.

But muscles do not need much protein, researchers say. Twenty grams is as much as an 80kg man's muscles can take. Women, who are smaller and have smaller muscles even compared to their body sizes, need even less.

Dr Phillips might have an energy bar during a long workout. But ordinarily, he does not worry about getting a special carbohydrate-to-protein mix or timing his nutrition when he exercises.

Instead, he said, he simply eats real food at regular meals.

NEW YORK TIMES


I also saw this quote on a website:

"So long as the goal is in sight,
the meandering and undulating way
across tall mountains and deep valleys
will lead to the highest peak."

lots of love @ 22:17
... I believe it's possible

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YESTERDAY

I went to Yes Awareness yesterday. We were supposed to report at 4.15 PM but I was early. (: We need to do the setting up and preparation for Movie Appreciation in the evening. Yu Han was there already. Then came Jia Wei, Amelia, Yu Zhuang, Yong Liang, Zhi Hong, Yi Rui and Yi Xiang. We were blowing ballons while Yu Zhuang and Yi Xiang went to get the cusion! Jia Wei swept the floor and then we had our briefing. Li Ting, Shu Ting and Shi Ting (Jessica) [All the 3 Tings] were late and were questioned by Yu Han... Oooo... So scary. =X Yu Zhuang and I were assigned as emcee for the movie discussion. After that Yu Han and Yong Liang went down to settle our dinner, Amelia and Li Ting went to settle the drinks for the audience, Yi Rui, Shi Ting and Shu Ting went to settle the snack, and Yu Zhuang and I were guided by Sis Yi Mei on how to handle the entire discussion. Then came CHERYLC! Hahaha!!! And Qi Kang, Ai Leng and Qi Xu. I told them to arrange the cusions nicely.

Dinner was ready. I went to have my dinner. Stella and Nicholas arrived. Ahhh! I can't go and fetched them so Cherylc helped me. =D Thanks!!! That Qi Kang ah.... He played the dance music and make me feeling like dancing. Shu Ting and Li Ting said that they will feed me so that I can dance. Hahaha.

That moment was arrival of guest. Lala and Nic hadn't had their dinner. So they went to have their dinner. We screened the movie "Warm Spring" which I had watched and cried for umpteen times. But we turned up laughing on the touching scene whereby we were supposed to weep. Oh well... I think the feeling of watching with friends and family are different. After the show, it was the discussion. I led a group of 12 for the discussion to trigger them to think and bring the Observation of Merits and Appreciation of Kindness message to the audience. My group were good!!! =D All of them managed to share their thoughts and opinions. After that we did all the claps, dance and cheers. Then dismissal! We were busy cleaning up and clearing up the left over food. Then the committee had the debrief. Stella and Nicholas waited for me and we went home together.

I'm waiting for Yong Liang to send me the pictures. Arww... I failed to take the pictures of guys crying!!!


Anyway, I saw this lady who is so resplendent. I think she's heading for cosplay. But it's kind of gaudy and ostentatious that many were starring at her. =X An old man beside me even took out his camera openly to take her pictures:

lots of love @ 11:37
... I believe it's possible

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Friday, June 20, 2008

HEY Lalala!

Eh... Clap clap clap... Eh... Clap clap clap...
Hey lalala!!!

I went for the Children Camp B&W Youth leaders' debrief today. We were so high during the debrief! We sang and dance! Woohoo!!! I didn't know that Qikang LOVES dancing. And Jia Wei... He swept the floor and dance. They guys were so funny. Didn't expect that they enjoyed! Well, I'm really glad that they enjoyed. They repeated the music and danced. We had pizza! Teacher Yu Cai treated us! Thank you so much. The Rite Pizza crust is nice!!! =D

Yawn. I'm so tired. Goodbye! Yay! I can't wait to take the candid shots of those guys who always take my unglam shots tomorrow. I'll standby my camera once they start tearing!

lots of love @ 22:47
... I believe it's possible

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Thursday, June 19, 2008

Rawr...

Firstly, I wanna comment on something. Luckily I had let go. =D If not I must be struggling to keep a rein on the pain assailing my heart!

Okay okay. Hmmm. I went back to JJ today. I chose today because I still owed Huai Ching his birthday card and the H2 Math students were having their common test today. But in the end, I turned up meeting some other friends because he had councillor meeting. Luckily I wasn't alone, if not he made me defeated the purpose of going back to JJ. I forced myself to wake up so early and I went to have breakfast with my dad and took his car to Toa Payoh. I took bus 157 all the way to JJ. It was a 54 minutes of boring journey. I was nausea during the journey. I reached JJ before 11am.

Well, I went to look for Ying Quan first to pass him letters. But he was out to get his lunch. Oh well, I sat in the canteen and Lihe came. She kept me company for awhile, then Ying Quan returned. I passed him the letters. Well... He spotted Sha Sha and I passed Sha Sha her letter personally. I hugged her so tightly. I missed her so much!!! Hmmm. Then I met Isabella to pass her letters as well as money. Then I saw Salina, Wan Ting, Amelia, etc. So happy to see them around. I was hugging Wan Ting so tightly too! I MISS HER SO MUCH! And Yue Yin!!! Grace kept me company for awhile. And I saw Chew Yew and Jerry. Haha. I waited for so long. I called Huai Ching for umpteen times but no avail. That's alright because I got to see my friends! I went back to my uncle's house at 12.50pm. I was on the phone with darling Qian Ting on my way back. I went to take my shoes and clothes and went to my grandpa's shop for lunch.

I went to Chinatown to meet another Amelia after lunch to pass her DVD. Wait... On my way there, I SAW LAMMY!!! Oh my! I was so happy! I haven't seen her for ages. Then I went back home and talks to Shitstead over the phone and I received SMS for Huai Ching that he would be coming over to Buangkok to look for me! Haha! He felt bad for making me going to school for nothing. I almost joked to him that he owes me another Sentosa trip!!!


I saw this poster on the bus 99 today. Please pay the correct fare!




ROAR. I still need to help up for PW. And why am I so wretched? Sigh I have no idea. Anyway, I love the following exerpt and quotes. =D


How Watching Anger Dissolves It
I found out that because I spent so much of my life in a family where anger was never allowed to be shown - over thirty years of suppressing anger - suddenly I felt this almost continuous rage for abot two or three months. Where did that come from? Nobody was making me angry here. It wasn't the situation, so I couldn't blame it on the place or the people or anything.

I had some kind of intuitive sense to stay with it, and at first I tried to do a lot of intentional practice, really concentrating the mind to suppress the anger. But to do that for three months was impossible because I didn't have that strong a will. So I gave up trying to control it and just watched it, and then, through that, I began to understand.

Then one morning I woke up and it was all gone. There was no anger and I was in a state of bliss. Everything was beautiful and luminous, and there was no anger. Even trying to bring it back, I couldn't. Nothing seemed to be, nothing would catch hold, nothing would grab me. So that happened just through patience and a willingness to suffer [and awareness].

- The Sound of Silence: The Selected Teachings of Ajahn Sumedho


"Since anger arises from clinging, why cling to anger?" - stonepeace


To live here and now, you must train yourself:
In the seen, there will be just the seen.
In the heard, just the heard.
In the sensed, just the sensed.
In the thought, just the thought.
That is the end of sorrow.

lots of love @ 20:31
... I believe it's possible

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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

WOW WOW

KHAI YIN, SI XIAN and STELLA, HERE ARE YOUR CANDID SHOTS!

I went down to NCHS today. =D I met Winnie and Jessie at Compass point around 9am and we walked to school. Winnie and Jessie wanted to collect their certificates. I HAVEN'T SEEN THEM FOR CENTURIES!!! Then we walked to school together... First time after we've graduated! I had fun with them. We proceeded to the General Office to collect the certificates and then we went up to dance studio. Ms Tan was there!!! =D I spoke to her for a while and we watched the juniors dance and took their candid shots and unglamourous poses! Haha! Lala came around 11.30am, I guess. We talked and played. After the training had ended, we discussed about dance jacket and dance camp! After the discussion, we went to compass point. Lala and I went to send Winnie and Jessie off first then went up to join the juniors for lunch. We were supposed to go back to school with the juniors, but my mum doesn't want me to go home late. Sorry DAUGHTERS!!! ): In the end lala and I looked around for jackets then lala sent me home. =D We chatted a lot! Haha.

Good bye!!! Enjoy those candid and unglamourous shots!

lots of love @ 20:20
... I believe it's possible

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