Saturday, March 31, 2007
Good Leader
Counting down: 17 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance & Chinese Oratorical Contest Final, 24 days to SYF Central Judging for International Dance and MY BIRTHDAY!!!
This is my second post. Continue with the previous post tiny words... ...
Sometimes, people usually pin-points at others. I'm neutral. I side neither of the three parties. But I had a clear view of what had gone wrong. But the people involved don't really realise the greatest mistake. I wonder why people don't put themselves in one anothers' shoes? So that they will understand how the other parties feel?
I feel like doing something to better the situation. But I don't want to get myself involved into the situation. It will worsen everything. I am not a good conflict manager or peace trooper.
What is self reflection? Not staring at the mirror and admiring how on the own looks... Neither staring at the reflection in the clear water of toilet bowl... Well, one should calm down and relax and forget about others' mistakes. One should recalled the incident and wonder what mistake she had done and change the attitude. Not pushing all the blame to others thinking that she is right all along. No one is perfect! If everyone is perfect, the world shall be peace. And self reflection is thinking through what went wrong with herself, but not waiting others to tell her directly to her face. Being too frank will hurt others. She may find someone to guide her along her reflection.
Firstly, what does a good leader mean?
Well, a good leader shouldn't be demanding or always scold people. Well, respect the others' rights. Put herself in the others' shoes. Think how they feel before she makes her move. Not all the people will understand her purpose. Scolding everybody all the times is not a right way to make the team improve. At the end of the day, people won't apprecaite it and condem her. They would think that she is unreasonable and disliked her. She will gain no respect from them.
A good leader should not climb on top of her own leader's head. A good leader must show a good example to her teamates. She must respect her leader's decision, be it she likes it or not, she should not show her objection in front of her teamates. She should also respect people who are senior to her even if they do not have any position. No matter what, they are still older than her. Respecting the others is very important.
A good leader should not think highly upon herself. Humility is very important. Others' rights and decision should be respected. Her authorities should not be abused. When people disobey her, she should think through what had gone wrong? Is her method of commanding wrong? Do the others like her idea? She should accept the feedback from the teamates. She should learn how to accept help from the others.
A good leader must be understanding and compassionate -- showering the teamates with affection, care and concern. Not being too fierce. A good leader should not scold her teamates immediately if she sees someone not progressing well. She must approach her teamates in a caring tone. But must truly from her heart. She shouldn't be sarcastic when people make mistakes. Hey, I make mistakes too, I doubt you don't!
A good leader must be firm but not in those demanding tone. People don't like it. It hurts their ears. Be firm so that people wouldn't climb on top of her. Being strict is important but must be flexible sometimes. At least people would not feel tensed up.
A good leader must take initiative and be responsible. She should not push all the blames on her teamates. She should identify the problem and get the right person to solve it.
A good leader must be patient. Even though her skill is good and more experienced than the others, she should guide the others patiently. Not everyone is fast learner.
A good leader must be motivating, convincing and enthusiastic. These would influence the others to be passionate with their mission. Encourage them to perservere when they attempt to give up.
All those elements mentioned are essentials of a good leader. At the end of the day, the teamates will respect her and obey her. There would not be any hatred. Everyone would be more cooperative and passionate. Considering about others' feelings is important!
Have I missed out anything? Are those mentioned agreeable? Feedback please!
lots of love @
21:06
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17 days to SYF, 24 days to...
Counting down: 17 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance & Chinese Oratorical Contest, 24 days to SYF Central Judging for International Dance & my birthday.
FIRSTLY, Happy birthday to Poh Jia Rong... Tomorrow is APRIL FOOL. So sad! No school tomorrow. Can't play tricks on people. But shitstead fooled me today!
I dreamt that I overslept & I really overslept. My brother just left the house without waking me. He did not bother to wake me up when my alarm clock rang. Forget it. Hmmm... I had my English remedial. I had no time to wake the rest of the family up. I called once, called twice, no response. Oh no! I'm late... I rushed down. Heard from my mum that all of them overslept. I had a hard time waiting for the bus. I was really late for English remedial.
There is a long break in between English remedial and Mathematics remedial. So I went to 7-eleven. At first, Gen Gen said she wanna go with me. But she need to answer an urgent call from nature. So I went alone. On my way back to school, I met Gen Gen by the school gate, so I walked back to 7-eleven again. Her spagetti was so warm that she couldn't eat fast. So I went back to school alone.
On my way, while I was crossing the zebra-crossing, I saw two male teenagers. But I don't know who they are. I had never seen them before. They were on their on conversation. So how did that matter me? Oh well, they happened to notice me. One of them called out, "Hey! SUPERSTAR!" I looked around, no sign of other people besides me & them. I ignored them and continue crossing. I thought maybe it was part of their conversation. While I crossed the traffic light towards the school, I turned back again, they also turned back. They waved. I thought they were waving to others. I looked to the front -- there was no one there. Were they waving to me? When I reached the other side of the road, they shouted "HEY SUPERSTAR!" I turned back again. They were waving to me so vigourously and looking towards my direction. I shouted "ME?" "Yes you!", they repied. I smiled wryly. They had recognised the wrong person. The situation was so akward. YES, and EMBARRASSING... Unless they were refering to the CSS Commercial which I looked stupid in it?
Well, Maths test was rather easy. Hope I didn't make any silly mistake. After the test, wanxin brought in a birthday cake. At first, her plan was to ask the whole class to sing birthday song to jia rong in front of 4E & 4H. His cake, chocolate mint. Looks good! Taste good too? I don't know. I didn't get to taste it.
Went to compass point with sylvia. She went to take LRT. I saw pearl on my way to interchange. We had spoken for 45 minutes.
Then I'm home now...
(Moving on to next topic...)
I heard the recounts from three different parties. The other girl is also in the wrong. I guess. But I pity her somehow. Nobody was on her side actually. People seemed helping her, but according to that party, they said they spoke to the main girl because they really could not tolerate her attitude. But they also could not stand the other girl's attitude. Many had complaint to me about her. She had complaint to me about many. Well, I think the problems now lie on both girls but not mainly by the rest. I think the other girl should reflect.
lots of love @
13:52
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Friday, March 30, 2007
Problems Arise
Counting down: 18 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance and Chinese Oratorical Contest Final, 25 days to my birthday and SYF Central Judging for International Dance.
I came across a blog which was very disappointing when I read the entries posted recently. Others joy is a poison to her. She hates it.
I don't understand why.
The words used were insulting and sarcastic. It would be disheartening for readers. Her anger simply affected a lot of people. She made people cry. No one knows what to to the save the situation.
Even though I am totally not involved, but somehow it is still related to me. It affects me somehow. But I don't want to interfere. To her, she may think it is none of my business.
Yes, not my business, but I don't bare to see the group is highly affected just because of one person. If she doesn't like it, in the first place, she should just simply said it out.
Everyone who tried speaking to her got insulted. But... Sigh...
She is certainly pushing the blame to others. But has she ever wonder why those people treated her in such manner? Does she know how incooperative she is? Will she ever knows how she affected the others? Has she ever put herself in the others' shoes? I doubt so. Hope this is not offending to her. It's my point of view as a third party. Will she ever reflect upon her mistake?
Others' feelings could never be controlled. I doubt I could control the way she thinks... So I find no point having a good talk with her. I doubt she will understand my purpose. I doubt she would appreciate it. The situation is worse than what I had thought. I finally understand why the other girl cried.
I think, she is too much. But what can I do? I could just watch, helplessly, hoping the situation will get better soon. Sorry, I could not help much. I hope the others would not be affected. Continue work hard and strived towards the goal. Hope the way she thinks would not affect the rest.
I wish I could go back in time. Where the best person who could resolve such situation is still around. Why is he not cherished by many? He is not around and people started to realise the importance of his presence. But it is too late.
Come on people, it's time to wake up and start afresh! No more conflicts and forgive one another. Don't worsen the situation. There is no more time to settle the problem. Why are people so pessimistic or petty?
Even me. I admit that I'm a little petty sometimes, but it doesn't last long. Only about 2 minutes? My tones are always sorrowful. (I think in my blog but not in real life.) I don't like showing my sorrows or anger to others. It neither benefits me nor makes me happier, only dampens others' mood and worsen my sorrows and anger. Once I had written them in my blog, I end the sorrow [except for the case which happened 4 weeks ago.] My anger doesn't last either. It will last about 3 minutes unless a person irritates me continuously that I really could not tolerate. But the anger goes away very soon after I had told someone or wrote it in my blog.
But a cheerful me will brighten others and I will not be bothered by other things that spoil my mood. I love to be a happy girl. To jump and hop as I like (but not the way it was shown in the Campus Superstar Commercial.)
Good night!
lots of love @
23:20
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18 days to SYF, 25 days to...
Counting down: 18 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance and Chinese Oratorical Contest Final, 25 days to my birthday and SYF Central Judging for International Dance.
Too busy to blog yesterday. I was busy with dance blog. I changed the blogskin. Shh.. Haha! I was supposed to revise the test on Transformation. Anyway, the test has been postponed to tomorrow. YAY!
Yesterday, me and her were better. At least I smile to her. I felt bad when I ignored her on Wednesday. Luckily someone was there entertaining her. Phew. Actually, I don't bare seeing her being left out after so many years of friendship even though I was irritatated by her. I spoke to her today. But I somehow pretend to ignore her if she went overboard. But luckily she realised that I don't really like it and stopped it.
I had my morning practice yesterday. At least it was done more efficently. Elvira took a video of me lifting my back leg. I did not have my breakfast. Thank goodness, Xue yan brought a chocolate cake to school. It was so nice! Thanks XUE YAN!!! LOVE YOU!!! I couldn't really remeber what happened during curriculum time yesterday. I only remembered that I had my English Conversation. The topic I had is TECHNOLOGY. What a tough topic to discuss about. Ms Teo commented that I'm fluent in speaking, but my facts are not convincing enough and my body language showed that I'm panicking. AHHH! Never mind, I'll improve on it!
After school, it was drizzling. I still haven't gotten back my umbrella! WHERE IS IT?! Shitstead and Sylvia sent me to the side gate. I was wondering how should I tell my mother that I walked in the rain? Lynn was my life savour! She appeared with her umbrella. We walked to compass point and had our lunch.
When I reached home, my mama discussed with me an important issue. Then I proceed to take a shower and busy with blog. I kept receiving messages or phone calls that people saw me on the Campus Superstar Commercial! I had never seen myself on TV yet.
Let's proceed to today. Hmmm... nothing interesting during lessons. I was in the dreamy mode. The maths remedial was cancelled. I went to Hougang Green with Xue yan, min min & huiyu for lunch and went back to school for Dance. We had to learn how to tie the hairstyle for the SYF. No more jade rabbit. The costume had changed. No more mermaid. Not much dancing today, but styling the hair and searching for costumes.
Went to compass point with Xue yan & stella. Went to FourLeaves to check the price of that cocoa cake. Stella & Xue yan bought doughnuts. Stella got me a swiss roll. We went to take the bus. Here came aaron lim and Jun de... Oh no! They took the bus 119!!! Aaron purposely chose a seat which was right opposite stella and mine. Uh oh! I shall be dead... Stella helped me shoot aaron. Jun De also shot him. So funny. Aaron become Ms Lim, called by stella. Then he went to call jun de Ms Chan. BURST INTO LAUGHTER! Okay. Stella left. I had a torturous time. Aaron started to disturb me... He also alight at the same stop as me. He said he wanna go Punggol Park fishing. Stupid.
Okay, I'm now HOME!
Goodbye!
lots of love @
19:56
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Wednesday, March 28, 2007
20 days to SYF, 27 days to...
Counting down: 20 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance & Chinese Oratorical Contest final, 27 days to my birthday and SYF Central Judging for International Dance.
I have a lot of comments about today but I'm not in the blogging mood today. Sigh. I'm sick and tired. Take care people. Drink lots of water and rest early!!! [That is what many people told me q:]
I went home early today. Supposed to look for Mrs Hoo after school. But I wanted to go home and rest. I realised I did not have any coins with me and my ezlink card's value is -25 cents. So I walked home.
I was so tired. My mama made honey lemon for me! I showered and sleep.
Jun Ru was funny today. He removed his shoes and walked to toilet to wear his shoes...
Lots more to say, but I must end it here...
lots of love @
22:05
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Tuesday, March 27, 2007
21 days to SYF, 28 days to...
Counting down: 21 days to SYF CENTRAL JUDGING FOR CHINESE DANCE & Chinese Oratorical Contest Final. 28 days to my birthday (EXACTLY 4 WEEKS!) and SYF Central Judging for International Dance.
I did not blog yesterday. I was really tired after the SYF training and I had a lot of homeworks. Yesterday's Biology lesson was so fun! Ms Neo wanted us each to say what we know about Ecology including those we had learnt. The 7 boys -- Bryan, Cheng Liang, Cheng Yi, Fredrick, Landon, Yi Long & Yong Li had to go to the front of the class and link those words, which were mention by the rest, biologically. If anyone of them made mistake, all them would be punished. Bryan and Yong Li both made a mistake each. Therefore, they had to spell the word "BIOLOGY" with their butts. So funny. They were so SHY!!! Landon refused to be punished. But ended up he made a pose of letter "Y".
My SS file wasn't completed. Mr Seah wanted me to stay back after school. But I had oratorical contest. Ms Neo also wanted us to stay back to check our CCA records. There is a fatal error in my record. (Shan't eleborate much on that.)
Lynette and I rushed to the meeting room to report for the oratorical contest. Not many people turned up for the competition. Since I had to rush back to class to complete my SS file, I requested to go first, but Seow Hung was there first already. Never mind, I shall be the second! Okay... Lynette was after me and she was too nervous! She stammered. After her was Xiu Er, Xiu Er told me to wait for her before I left. All right then. She was real nervous too!!! AHHHH!!! Yi Kai was after Xiu Er... I wanted to watch how he performed, but Lynette wanted to go back to class. Okay then. I learnt from Mrs Hoo that I am qualified for the final... The class's reaction -- expected...
I was really exhausted after the dance practice yesterday. I was DEHYDRATED AND I NEED WATER DESPERATELY!!! BUT SOMEONE JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW SERIOUS MY CONDITION WAS AND CONTINUE JOKING!!! Walked to compass point. I had no strength to talk and my mouth was very dry. FINALLY I COULD GET A DRINK when I reached compass point!!! [I love Hui Yu!!! She always concern for me! So nice of her... She told me that she would SMS me to ask me to drink water and I must do it immediately! Hahas! Thanks huiyu! I really appreciate it.] Let's get back to topic. I feel better after drinking but I still refuse to talk. I shall explain it in later part of the entry.
My mama knew that I was running out of glucose and water. When I reached home, she had prepared a glucose solution for me. I love my mama! She is so great.
Today, I had morning practice. BUT THE TIME WAS WASTED. I don't really like it. Mr Tien's lesson was the first period and he wanted us to return to class on time. But we usually start practising after the singing of National Anthem. I couldn't blame others. Because Khai Yin was interviewing me and need to film the interview. Actually, it should be done yesterday after dance, but I was too tired to speak.
Shan't eleborate much on lessons. During the weekly assembly, the Drama members performed. The main characters' acting are good and the sea creatures weren't bad. But, I think others need improvements. I could not comment much as I'm not a drama member.
We had English Writing Enrichment course after school. I enjoyed the lesson.
I heard from Gen Gen that I appeared on TV for the commercial for campus superstar.
I realised that speaking too much nonsense (or rather crapping) do not bring me benefits. However, I realise the bad consequences of being to crappy. People tend not to pay too much attention on me when I am serious. Many people are not amused by my nonsense. I shall cut down my crap. Having sore throat cut down my crap recently. I must not waste too much energy talking. At most I will crap little with Shitstead and I'll talk with others when necessary and sometimes I may pepper with good and logical joke in between.
My birthday is in 4 weeks time. I decide to be a very good girl that day and make my mama happy. If not she had been suffering for almost 16 years. I brought her a lot of troubles and make her angry, worry & disappointed a lot of times. I brought her pains when I was in her womb. So I must be a very very very good girl from that day onwards.
It was so obvious that she has been acting throughout. Not even a group of people who used to be very close to her see through her mind. Even other group of people do. I really could not tolerate those nonsense she has been giving me. When will she know her limit? When will she realise that people already realise that she is acting most of the time? I have been with her for such a long period of time. I know clearly that she was acting. I have a lot of concrete evidents but I just shut up. I don't want to hurt her feeling as she was those weak-hearted and petty person. I don't want to talk much. Don't be surprised if I ignore her for a day. Recently, when I am really serious, she is still making a joke out of what I had said. I don't want to bother much. I don't wish to be bothered by her sickening attitude. I don't want to waste my time and energy speaking to her. Perhaps, I shall ignore her for a day or 2... Let someone else help me explain to her. I have lost patient to entertain her. She is different when she is with different people. The longer you are with her, the more you will realise the true her. [ I do not dislike her, but I have some displeasures.]
lots of love @
17:42
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Sunday, March 25, 2007
23 days to SYF, 30 days to...
Counting down: 23 Days to SYF Central Judging For Chinese Dance, 30 Days to my birthday & SYF Central Judging for International Dance.
Nothing much to update here. Just want to count down to those big days. 31 days to winnie's birthday!
Lalalalalas!
 Soaring Wings #12
lots of love @
14:06
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Saturday, March 24, 2007
24 days to SYF; 31 days to...
Counting down: 24 days to Chinese Dance SYF Central Judging, 31 days to my birthday & International Dance SYF Central Judging.
The award shall be my best birthday present. (: So put in all your effort people!
I refused to wake up this morning. My alarm rang at 6am and I snoozed it till 7am. I prepared. I was searching for all my Social Study worksheets for filing and the workbook. Rushing to complete the Integration Worksheet for Additional Mathematics.
All those process and preparation were done by 8.30am. I realised I forget to wake the rest up! MUMMY! DADDY! QIAN QI! BROTHERS!!! WAKE UP!!! They were late!
Okay, I had hard time waiting for bus but I reached school on time. Mr Seah had not reached the class when I reached. Did the RI paper.
During A.Maths lesson, Liling brought some snacks. We munched them during the lesson. Mr Koh was rushing through the topic. He gave us 20 minutes break. We went to 7-eleven then rushed back. He told us that snacks are bad for health and cannot eat too much. In the mean time, he also took some of our snacks!!!
The lesson ended at 12.35pm. Wan Xin organised an outing to watch Mr Bean Holiday after the class. I wanted to watch!!! But I have not enough money. Went to compass point to have lunch with lynette, Woon Yong & Jia Rong. Then we went home.
I ate again because my dad bought my lunch! Haha. Then I went to shower & sleep till 6plus. I was so tired! I spent my afternoon sleeping!!!
Then in the evening, I had my dinner and smsing.
Oh yah! I missed out something! Shitstead was tricked by me!!! Lalalalalas! Shan't eleborate that because it's hard to express the process with just words here! But heard that she went tricking others too!
April Fool's coming! Lalalalala...
Conflicts are not supposed to arise in a dance group. But it's hard to prevent when there are interactions between people. But can they be united again and stop disliking people?
Sigh...
I still feel like sleeping... Intend to rush my homework tomorrow morning.
Goodbye!
lots of love @
22:44
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Friday, March 23, 2007
25 Days to SYF, 32 days to...
Counting down: 25 days to SYF Chinese Dance Central Judging; 32 days to my birthday.
Time is passing really fast. I had seen our time slot for SYF. Ours is the 4th item of day 2. And for my birthday, I received a gift from Lynn. It was so early!!! But anyway, I like that gift. A pink mickey mouse watch. (: Love lynn! Thanks girl! I really appreciate the gift though it was given so early.
Anyway, Happy Birthday to Jacelyn & happy belated birthday to Woon Yong,
My little brother is on my nerve right now. He's a liar and a thief!!! THIEF!!! It sounds serious right. He stole my M&M Chocolate when I was showering. That pathetic packet of chocolate is to distress myself!!! But... sigh... He just took it without my permission. My sister could be witness. But he still lied to me that he didn't and even attack me from the back. LIAR! THIEF!!! SHITSTEAD! CATCH HIM!!! RAWHHHHH!!!!!!
Okay. Hmmm.. Let's calm down...
Shimin and I managed to rush back to class before Mr Tien came in after the morning practice. Chinese Dance is the only CCA, which is taking part in the SYF, that has the least trainings. But I guess morning practice is not useful. Every practice, we did not get to practice much. We could not full up and everyone is certainly marking the actions only. And not everyone is punctual.
Xue Yan and I was very strict during today's training. I could see some surprise expression from some people. But so sorry, we must be strict and serious in all morning practices from today onwards.
I was very sleepy throughout the lessons. I YAWNED countless times. Luckily teachers peppered some jokes and craps in the lessons if not I would have fallen asleep!
We still had dance practice after school. After dance training, we still had to attend the talk by principals for graduating classes. At first, we didn't have to. It was suppose to be ment for the parents, I guess.
Wan Xin came to dance studio to inform me about that I need to attend the talk. So nice of her! She's a great class chairperson (though she's the vice-chairperson for this year). She has been leading us for the third year. She always updates us about the extra lessons and sends reminders to us! Wan Xin rawks. (: I really appreciate what she has contributed for the class.
My parents did not attend the meet-the-parent (or rather my parents' meet-the-teacher) session today. They were so busy to attend. But I don't really want my parents to attend. I'm not afraid that teacher complaining about me, because I'm practically a good girl in school. The one I'm afraid of is that my dad might complain about how I perform at home. He always heard my mama complaining about me when he came home. He hardly spends time with me at home, therefore, to him, I'm a naughty girl.
I waited for stella after my attendance (for the presence for the talk) was taken in class. The 4B boys were so mischievious. They started teasing me about that rumour which has been going on for 2 years. I'm used to that already. Don't really bother much. I mentioned this because I wanted to say that luckily my dad wasn't there. If not he will be displeased. Another reason is, I'm very grateful to stella. She always helps me scolding those people when they had done overboard. I love stella too! (:
And and and, I CAN'T STAND JUN TING, THE AH PEH, CUM PERVERT!!! He tried to trip me and made me almost falling down. TOO BAD AH PEH!!! I know how to control my CG... Find him kinda irritating. He always bully my shitstead!!!
My weekends are gone!!! Extra lessons have eaten up my whole morning. I'll be having class in the evening and I need time for travelling. Whole saturday is gone. Sunday is my homework and revision day.
YAWNING off. Good bye!
lots of love @
21:35
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Thursday, March 22, 2007
26 days to SYF, 33 days to...
Counting down: 26 days to Chinese Dance SYF Central Judging, 33 days to my birthday.
Today started off with rushing to complete my physics work book which is supposed to be submitted 3 weeks ago. I did not complete most of the exercises in the past. I regretted being so lazy. Mr Foo threatened that if I am unable to hand in the work to him by this afternoon, he would want to meet my parents. Too bad! My parents would not be free tomorrow!!! He said he would call. I said that I would answer the phone when he calls. But I managed to complete the workbook.
We saw our expectation grades set by MOE for our GCE O Level yesterday. I am supposed to get distinction for all subjects, but mostly A2. Some subjects, like Chemistry, are under estimated. I am supposed to get A1, if not Mr Tien gonna be disappointed. For Combine Humanities, I am expected to get an A1!!! That was the best joke I ever had!!! I want to be a value added student. I'll strive hard to achieve an A1 for it then. But I must buck up on Elective Geography. Both Mathematics, A1...
Fredrick was being under estimated too!!! So unfair. His expected grade for Chemistry is B4. No way man! He's a genius. His expected L1R5 is 16!! But I think he is a single digit scorer.
The grades were predicted from how we perform for PSLE.
I'm so not use to Poh Yih sitting behind me. Theresa misses the spagetti boy!!! Haha! Fredrick is so far away. Sometimes, I almost turned around wanted to ask about homework, but it is Qi Jun at Fredrick's seat now.
Had Mathematics after school. And it was raining when I was going home. I ran in the ran with stella. My mama scolded me for running in rain.
lots of love @
19:14
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007
27 days to SYF, 34 days to..
Counting down: 27 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance, 34 days to my birthday.
Had morning practice this morning. It was raining. My dad didn't allow me to go to school by myself. I lost my umbrella. I reached school at 7.02am. I was late. But I realise there was only 3 secondary 4 dancers in the hall. Okay then, I went up to the class to put down my stuff. I took my stuff for Mathematics lesson. I went down the hall with Shi Min. Along the corridor, I saw shitstead. Told her not to be late for morning practice. [She told me that by the time she had put down her bag, it was already time for Mathematics. ~ She took so long to put down her bag!!!]
Everyone was on their on during the earlier part of morning practice. We practised by ourselves. Later on we did certain movements together. Then we practised with the music. [By that time, morning assembly was over. ~ It is always like that. Many were not punctual. Some were just there slacking.] (And to Shitstead: You always skip dance practice! Humph!!! Your attendance is 0%.) Mr Ong and Mr Koh Chee Kang came to watch us. Mr Ong approached us in the end of morning practice. He asked us if we need more red ribbons(in chinese, it's call chou2) but we were using the blue one for SYF!!! He asked about the design of the costume. We told him that the costumes aren't ready. He told us to show him the costume, wearing (we heard "wedding") it once it's done.
Me and Shi Min went to school library for Mathematics. We were late. Mr Eric Koh said "Hello aunty, just finish dancing ar. You manage to find us ar. They said you very stupid because they didn't tell you where we are and you find all over the school ar..." Lynette told me that he was bluffing me. He asked me what I was dancing. I told him ribbon. He said those kind of rags... It's not rag, okay?!
Did incline-chin-up, sit-and-reach, standing broad jump for PE. My arms were so tired after the morning practice. I had a hard time doing incline chin up... 17 chin ups in 30 seconds. Below my standard! I couldn't beat cheng yi for sit and reach!!! His score was 58cm. Mine was only 54cm. 4cm more!!! Arggg. None of the girls can beat him. Ming fang's and mine were the highest. Now I owe him drink... My standing broad jump, 172cm "broad" only. Bad example of a dancer. A dancer should jump further, like Macadia... 183cm.
We did filing for SS, but, I left most of the worksheets at home.
Started to fall asleep during Chinese lesson. Not that Mrs Hoo's lesson was boring, I guess it was because I ate too much during recess and the PE made me drousy.
Thought that Biology would make me sleep. But Ms Neo began her lesson which caught our attention. Taking about 4H guys, BGR, GGR, BBR. Haha! Then she went through the workbook.
Ms Neo switched certain guy's sitting arrangement. Fredrick had shifted out of my row. I missed fredrick sitting behind me, if not I could check answers with him. Now it was so inconvenient. Poh Yih now sits behind me. Arwww... Qi Jun also. Two aircons behind me. **Brrr... Shivering cold**
Went to look for Mr Koh after school. Shitstead was interested in Maths Olympia... I was considering, but I decide not to join.
Went home with stella. Saw winnie on our way. I saw Jie Yim upon reaching my neighbourhood. Did not expect to meet her but it was not surprising to see her in my estate. I was waving to her so vigourously. I reached home early, but wasted my time meaninglessly on computer.
Good bye!!!
lots of love @
18:26
... I believe it's possible
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
28days to SYF, 35 days to...
Counting down 28 days to SYF Central Judging for Chinese Dance, 35 more days to my birthday.
I learnt from Mrs Hoo that the Chinese Oratorical Contest final will fall on 17th April 2007, Tuesday, which mean four more weeks, or rather 28 more days... ... Oh no! What does it mean? It clashes with SYF competition???!!! NO WAY!!!
Sigh... I'm in dilemma. SYF IS CONFIRM VERY VERY IMPORTANT... But Chinese oratorical contest... It's my final chance to participate in secondary school. Even if I can rush back to school in time, do I have to go on stage with the mermaid costume, jade rabbit hairstyle and make ups?
I used my old script. Mrs Hoo said it is all right. But my classmates had heard it for hundreds of times already!!! Guess some of them would also able to memorise it and receit it.
I did my Chemistry practical today. No picture! I don't bring handphone to school during normal school days. I tested for anions and gases.
The anions are rather easier. The most exciting part is testing for gases.
I like hearing the "POP" sound produced by the lighted wooden splint extinguished by hydrogen gas.
The carbon dioxide test is easy, but I must be fast enough to bubble the gas in lime water once the reaction of Calcium Carbonate and Hydrochloric acid started. The first try I was too slow. The lime water did not turn chalky.
The ammonia gas... It was the third time testing for it, but this time we must smell it not just seeing it turning damp red litmus paper blue. Just like the smell of urine.
Chlorine gas smells like swiming pool. It turns litmus paper from blue to red to bleach.
Sulphur dioxide... Goodness gracious... It was so punget man! It turns acidified potassium dichromate (VII) from orage to green.
Sniffed... My throat is choked with the gas. I still have the choking feeling right now.
The chemistry practical ended alround 5pm as we started late. We started late as we were held back after weekly assembly. We sat at the gallery and we were so noisy when the English Story Telling Competition was going on.
Mr Tay were somehow lecturing us after that but in a very friendly tone. He said something that make me burst into laughter (I'm not supposed to though). That was so rude of me. Shitstead couldn't hold her laughter and burst into laughter too.
I felt that today I rushed my work for nothing. I woke up early this morning to rush all my work and the teachers announced that the deadline has been postpone. Arghh!
Stupid me... Lalalalalala. Haha!
lots of love @
19:34
... I believe it's possible
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Monday, March 19, 2007
Weak girl
My reaction was really slow today. I'm very drousy. I had enough sleep. But... Sigh...
The whole right portion of my body aches! The muscles & bones ache, even the internal organs are twitching. Sigh... My left brain hurts too!
I regretted telling my mama. She always said things that scare me. Sigh, or even hurt me.
I don't dare to tell my dad. I don't wish to waste his strength. He's encountering certain problems too. Don't really want to worry him too.
I find myself useless. Watched the Ren Xin Ci Ai Zao Wan Qian, the Ren Ci Hospital Charity show last night. But not the entire show. I on at the right time I guess. It was the formation choreographed by Mr Low, followed by Ming Yi Fa Shi. Ming Yi Fa Shi is really very bold and great! Looked at the way he persevere, and all he did are for the sake of Ren Ci patient, regardless of race or religion. He used up all his strength and effort, for the sake of the patient. He's neither an athelic nor a rock climber. It's really not easy for him.
For me, I used up people's strength... ... I'm WEAK! Sigh!
I wasn't supposed to blog today. I had promised my dad last night. Sigh. But I need to voice out how I feel on blog. I really have no one to tell sometimes. Certain issues make me feel uneasy telling my friends, for my mother, she's a good listener, but she had lots of chores to do. My dad, he's always busy at work and comes home when I was going to bed. My elder brother, he's taking his A level this year, better not disturb him. My two younger siblings? Well, guess they are too young to understand.
Blogging is the best way to voice out my feeling. Anyway, who the heck will care right? I mean, those personal feelings, as long as it doesn't hurt the others, should be fine. Yea?
Good bye!
lots of love @
20:53
... I believe it's possible
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
I didn't know that my dreams could be so scary or mysterious. Cannot say that it's a nightmare. If not people will laugh at me.
I dreamt of flying files, talking ruler, books flipping by itself and words can suddenly appear. It's like those scene of horrible tales for those gruesome kids. BUT I'M NOT! Hahas.
Those were things that keep me wondering yesterday.
I did my homework with invisible ink. REALLY INVISIBLE. NOT TOUCHED YET.
I'm worried that I could not complete them on time. RAWHHHHHH!
I'm so tired. Slept late last night. Actually I wanted to wake up early today. School's reopening tomorrow. Don't feel like going back. A few more weeks to SYF. The trainings are going to be more intensive! Dead. Not that I'm not looking forward to the training, is that I'm afraid that I can't cope well with school work if I concentrate on SYF.
I spoke to Lynn this morning. I advice her not to join NDP. Her grades had dropped because of SYF, if she joins NDP, she may not get good grades at the end of the year unless she has good time management. I guess I'll wait till next year.
My brother told me to work hard for my O Level. I really want to go NYJC. But he said that maybe the cut off point will reduce to 9points. I must really start working on those. Unless I use DSA. But if I use DSA means I must join dance in JC. But according to my brother the dance training there is not my type. I'll still continue with dancing in JC. Maybe I'll go and join Mdm Ong's class at Bradell Heights as well as in Dance Inspiration.
lots of love @
14:28
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Saturday, March 17, 2007
Opps! =X
Can some people just shut their ass off when something doesn't bother them?
[Opps! That was too harsh of Qianyong. She seldom said that!]
Hmmm. I was so tired. Just came back home. I was quite hurt by something my mama said. Never mind. Shan't mention that. I guess, she doesn't mean it. Shitstead & her mama cheered me up. But my mama is really tired. I guess I'm really a heartless daughter. Yea, she does everything for the sake of ME, my father, my brothers & sister. She has overworked. She has sacrifies a lot. She doesn't not spend time doing things for the sake of herself. What a selfless mother. She's so great. She's a great daughter too. A filial child towards her parents when she was young. How could she deserve to give birth to a heartless, helpless, useless and selfish daughter. Yea?
I thought someone was angry with me. Yet that person turned out waving to me so vigorously as if we have not met for centuries. Stupid, but good. At least we are no longer angry with each other. Yea =D.
Something keeps me wondering. Don't feel like typing it today. Maybe tomorrow.
Oh ya, I feel like slapping Hong Sheng. He's so noisy & nosy. He's so sissy too. Stop scolding vulgarities, yea? I don't slap him because I don't wanna dirty my hands. But Guo Peng told me to use gloves. Stupid. Hey, that's so lame of him. But I enjoy asking that sissy to shut up! It's funny to see some pendejo looking weird when he hasn't finish his sentence and was being told to shut up. I wanna ask you, CAN YOU BEHAVE PROPERLY?! Can't stand seeing him bullying his mother.
I realise the tone of most of my blog is negative. I'm such a selfish person. Post all my angers and sorrows on blog dampening people's mood. I hardly post something happy or funny on blog now.
Well, good bye.
By the way, the feeling had already faded off centuries ago. Stop thinking too much.
lots of love @
22:38
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Feeling Idiotic
Went for CIP today. Supposed to report at Yio Chu Kang Mrt Station at 8.30am. But Sylvia & I were late. We reached at 8.45am. I was supposed to meet her at Senkang Bus Interchange at 7.50am. Ended up she reached at 8.03am. Early huh?! We waited for the bus 163 (wrong bus actually), we took so long to wait. It arrived at 8.14am. I was worried that the bus would not bring us to our destiny. Sylvia confirmed with Arthur and he said "YUP". I called Arthur when I realised the bus was driving out of Yio Chu Kang area. Arthur said "Sorry! It's supposed to be 162, not 163!" Arghh! Stupid. We quickly alighted. Sylvia was outrage. Luckily there are buses like 70 and 86 which passed by Yio Chu Kang Mrt station at that stop. By the time we boarded the bus 86, it was already 8.30am. Arwww! Feel like an idiot!
When we reached Yio Chu Kang Mrt station, we realised there were some people who were later than us. Phew! Hahas! By the time we were there, Lynette and Shitstead were already in Toa Payoh. I went to Toa Payoh after collecting the donation can.
We reached Toa Payoh Central. We saw a long queue outside the station. Students were queueing for Campus Superstar audition. Long queue. Never mind. We struggled our way out to look for two of them.
They were at the second floor when they called me. Sylvia and I went up. (And we overshot to 3rd floor.) Stupid... We walked down again and saw Joanne, fish and fish's friends. Joanne said she's participating in the audition.
When we were at the second floor, they went to first floor to hunt for us. Dumb... Should not have gone up in the first place.
We had our breakfast at KouFu. But Sylvia wanted to go MacDonald. Okay then, we went MacDonald and took away. On our way, I saw Si Xian queueing for Campus Superstar. I went Crazy! Woots! My daughter! Haha, well, then we went to Mac, took our order. When we reached the doorstep of KouFu, we suddenly remembered we had forgotten about Lynette's green tea. We walked downstairs again, hunting for cheers. Feel so idiotic again. Went up & down.
We walked in and out in and out everywhere though we know that cheers wasn't located at those places.
All right! GAVE UP!!! We went to NTUC. Finally gotten her green tea. When we entered KouFu, Joanne and company had already finished their breakfast.
Campus superstar audition began. Feel like watching, but I didn't feel like walking out there again. I was so lazy to stand up again when I just seated and started munching onto the food. I saw the TV, the show telecasted was my childhood memories. Haha! I watched that show when I was Primary 4!!!
Finally finished my meal. Heard that the first person who queued for the Campus Superstar got into the competition. She queued since 3am last night... Typical Singaporean...
I watched the audition for awhile. We were supposed to ask people to donate money. But we ended up watching audition. Luckily I had prepared $9 of 10cent-coins. HAHAS!
It's not easy to be selected. There were so many people participating. There were some girls who were very brave. Some were confident but out. Some were too nervous and had stage fright. Some just sang the first few words and the judge just pressed the "tare" bell, she's out.
Bored. I was not so tall. What a GOOD view I had. Sometimes, all I could see is a golden and brown hair in front of me.
Went to find Joanne. We saw Seow Hung also. Both of them will be joining. Yay! Zhu, Han! All the best! They were so far back at the queue. We ended up queueing with them. Elaine and her stead were there too.
I feel so idiotic again. I kept dropping the can.
There were people filming there also. Two groups of interviewer going around. One is the one who looked like a clown with the light blue pants on him. The other one was a lady wearing a JC uniform.
The interviewers were searching for a great bunch of people to interview. The blue pants man did not interview us. He interviewed the one before and the one after us in the queue. Joanne they all were so afraid to be shot by the camera.
The lady in JC uniform approached us and we were kind of forced to be interview. Sylvia was wearing her sunglasses (Oh ya! We were sitting and standing under the hot scorching sun.) and the interviewer was asking her to removed them. She was speaking in English when the interviewer was speaking Mandarin. She asked us a few questions. Shitstead and Lynette ran away. She interviewed Seow Hung and she sang, Joanne didn't dare to. She asked me a few questions too. OH NO!!! MEANS I'M GONNA BE ON TV AGAIN???
Hmmm, we had to go back to Yio Chu Kang MRT station to return the donation can by 1pm. Means we got to leave soon. Didn't manage to see them. Well, zhu, han, xian xian, Yuen Yin, the 2 Angelines, rina... All the best! Heard that most of them had to have their audition on Monday.
Went to Serangoon with Lynette for lunch and now, just reached home. I'm going out again later.
So see you people! Bye!
lots of love @
15:42
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Friday, March 16, 2007
BLOG bLOG blOG bloG blog . . .
I realise I have been blogging these few days. However, may blog may be abandoned after the school holiday. I really need to manage my time properly and begin with my revision. If I continue "entertaining" my blog, I will have not much time for revision. My time is spent for schooling, dancing, eating, sleeping, showering, playing and also homework & revision. I need to cut down the time spend on the computer.
I'm crazy after eating watermelon. I tend to SMILE AND JUMP crazily around the house. My mama said I'm crazy girl!
Sometimes, he has serious attitude problem that I cannot tolerate. However, sometimes he's nice. Arghh! Sometimes I feel like giving him a good scolding. He doesn't know his limit! But sometimes I feel so sorry for being so harsh towards him. Sigh.
lots of love @
20:23
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I Wonder
Sometimes, I feel like asking them to shut up. But I guess, that's too rude.
Never mind.
I feel so bored today. My meaningless friday. I would rather there's school today, though I know I should be reluctant to go. But I don't want to spend my Friday meaninglessly.
I was reading people's blog just now. Certain things make me speechless. Never mind. Qianyong shan't eleborate on that. To prevent hurting some people.
My mama wants me to do my stretching everyday. So funny. I was so awestrucked to hear that from her. Laughs!
I feel like having a hair cut. Long hair makes me feel so warm. But I need to wait till SYF is over. We're not suppose to have our hair cut now. I don't really dare to, in case the hair dresser over cuts my hair.
My juniors were asking me for my birthday. I told them working hard for SYF shall be my best birthday present. It's not the medal that matters, is the team spirits. Even if we don't win a gold, we'll still feel happy because we know that we had done our best. But now, I'm really disappointed with certain people's attitude towards dance. Some who are used to be very enthusiastic turn out complaining a lot. Hey, where's the passion? Come on people, work hard.
Both Chinese Dance and Modern Dance, please put in your fullest effort. Slackers, please start working hard. A few weeks to competition. We must do our best to strive for our goals (Not golds). Don't let dance down, don't let the seniors and graduates down.
All the best dancers, all the best too to other CCAs! All the best to everyone!
NCHS Dance... The slogen behind the Dance Tee: We live the passion. So please live on with the passion.
Anyway, thanks for those people who have been giving me their courage. Loves them lots!
lots of love @
15:42
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BORED AT HOME
No school today. Dance practice is cancelled. But my brother kept waking me up since 7am. He did not during the pass few days when I had to go to school. My dad too. He kept waking me! Arww! I need more sleep! My sister doesn't know how to look at the clock. She kept asking me to play with her when it's going to 12am last night. Oh ya, I managed to wish Kat happy birthday on 11.57pm. Guess I should be the very last one!
Yesterday I dropped a dollar coin in to a drain outside 7-Eleven. The gaps between the grill of the drain was so small. The metal grill was so heavy. HELP! I saw Aloysius and company. I asked him to help me. He did not managed to, ended up Zhi Gang helped me to open the drain. Thanks lots!
Well, nothing better to do today, I'm so bored, I have lots of homework waiting for me to complete.
lots of love @
12:44
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
Lalala! 3rd POST!
 THE BOX
 Front view
 BACK VIEW
 SIDE VIEW
My third post! Those pictures were KAT'S gift from different view. I'll try my best to be the last wishing her happy birthday at the actual day. The turtle looks so flat. The box is nice! The FACE IS SO FUNNY!!!
lots of love @
22:33
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2nd post
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAT!!!!!! <3
I wonder how Kat will react seeing the gift we had given her!
Ms Maimunah chat with me just now. I comment that she was a naughty teacher as she gives students names. She wrote "yee joo the keju (cheese)" in her personal message. She said it rhymes. She told me she doesn't want to give me special name because I'm not special enough. **CRACKS** Can you hear the broken pieces of heart? I asked her that question. She said she can't hear. I told her my heart broke into a million pieces. She then said the she doesn't give me names because I'm a good student. That's sound much much much better. She must be sleeping now as she's so sick today. Take care Ms Maimunah (My munah... Opps =X)!
[Next issue]
Well, people misunderstood her! She's innocent! She didn't blame anyone. Certain people are unreasonable and illogical.
[Next issue]
I received no response from that person. Well, I GIVE UP! (Sorry daughters, but thanks a lot.)
[Next issue]
I realise my post is back in multiply again... Thanks MeiQi!!! I read the comment you had written in my post regarding "I think I lost you". Thanks for your courage. MeiQi rawks! She's a nice girl. She tends to cheer people up. =)
I have not have my dinner, it's already 9.32pm. Bye!
lots of love @
21:22
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CHEER UP PEOPLE
Sighs! Lots of sighs!
I'm experiencing countless negative feelings in one go. People around me are already very very gloomy these few days. I don't want their house to be flooded with more tears because of me. I really don't want to damp those people who are high... ...
I feel guilty, I feel disappointed, I feel dishearten, I feel a little frustrated, I'm experiencing anxiety, fear. Well, lots of adrenaline are secreted in my body.
I almost broke down last night. I but I didn't. I don't want to let my mum knows that I'm unhappy these few days. She'll feel bad.
I love Yee Teng & Regina. My listening ears. My daughters are real great.
I manage to wake up on time by myself. Went to school. I waited so long for the bus. The bus was so cold. The whole outer suface of the bus was thick water droplets. I took a picture of it. We went to Bio Lab for the class. No practical. But we saw our bacteria. What a pity that I could not take the picture of the bacteria.
I did not take much pictures today. Not in the picture taking mood.
Ms Neo release us half an hour early, Mr Koh started the lesson 15 minutes late -- MEANS WE HAD 1 hour 15 minutes break! We went to 7-eleven. Hmm.. We had gotten our GCE O Level comfirmation slip. The amount of money to pay is so much. Why must we pay for examinations?
Mr Koh taught us new chapter. He ended the lesson earlier. I had enough time for lunch. Yay. I had dance afterwards.
I saw the SYF costume. Daughter Khai Yin was the model. Looked like a pink mermaid! I was so tired. My arms had no strength. Dance till 4 plus.
I'm lazy to blog much.
But those people who are sad. CHEER UP!!! SMILE (:
lots of love @
19:15
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Pictures
YESTERDAY'S PICTURES:
 Dishearten Girl, By Qianyong
 Original
 Hello Panda, Porky
 Towards compass point
 Landon, Yilong, Fredrick
 Yea
 Chemicals
 Biology lab, doing chemistry Practical
 Ammonia gas turns damp litmus paper blue
 Test for Cations
 Iron (III) salt PPT. Looks like SHIT!
 Iron(II) Salt PPT, looks like moss
 I like this one! Copper (II) ions in Aqueous Ammonia
 White PPT, soluble/insoluble in excess
 white ppt, insoluble in excess
 white ppt, soluble in excess to form colourless solution
 That patch of grass turn yellowish
 supposed to be green.
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Today, I overslept again! Arww! My brother did not wake me up despite hearing the alarm. Luckily I wasn't late for Mr Koh's lesson. We had not enough time for break. Mr Koh released us late. I was so hungry! We saw people filming a show in our school. We were not sure what show is that called.
 Filming now
 SCDF Members setting up the "fire"
 People watching, the director gonna start filming the scene.We had our Physics practical today. We did the on on circuit and the one on lens. Quite fun doing the lens. We had done the circuit one for many many times already.
 Experiment set up
 Focus
 Actors leaving, goodbye!
 Left overs...
We left the school after seeing the people left the school. We were suppose to get Kat's gift after school. Shitstead, Sylvia and Me went to Compass Point after school. We ended up crapping and playing. We ate at Mosburger (we called it 'Mos' for our "Ohms"). People were thinking we were alien. We sat at Mos for an hour. Then we finally shop for Kat's gift.
 sylvia trying to take a picture of me
 sylvia & shit on TV?
 Caught ya SHITSTEAD!
 Disgusting
 Looks like SIMS
Shall eleborate on Kat's gift tomorrow. If not she knows what's going on and it shan't be fun. On my way back home I saw an adorable baby. She was so sweet. Before she saw me she wasn't smiling. When I walked pass her, she started smiling and kept looking at the direction I was walking towards! Yeaa! I LOVE KIDS!
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I didn't know that I would hurt her. It was an accident. I feel so guilty. I'm really really sorry. I don't mean to hurt her. Really, I did not realise I had hurt her till she told me. I feel like a fool. I'm stupid, helpless and useless. Sigh. Sorry girl, but I really hope she'll cheer up soon.
(Another Issue)
I really don't like people to make themselves sound so pity being loved by someone whom people hate. I find no point angry over such issue and describing that fellow as someting disgusting. That fellow did not did anything to her at all. Why must she be frustrated? No point, really. The more she bothers, the more chance they will see each other. I mean the more times she'll realise his presence.
(another Issue)
When I flipped through the diary that was filled with the sweet memories in the past, I regret that I did not cherish you. Reading the messages you had written, I felt the warmth all of a sudden. But when I realise the fact that we were both cold, I feel like bursting into tears. I have no one to cry to right now. Many of my good friends are unhappy. Sigh!
I thought I had lost the best listening ears. But I realise I have another great listener. I love Regina. She was listening to me last night. Thanks lots girl! Mummy loves you! To those who are unhappy, cheer up!
Goodbye!
lots of love @
16:54
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Dishearten Girl, By Qianyong
Original
Hello Panda, Porky
Towards compass point
Landon, Yilong, Fredrick
Yea
Chemicals
Biology lab, doing chemistry Practical
Ammonia gas turns damp litmus paper blue
Test for Cations
Iron (III) salt PPT. Looks like SHIT!
Iron(II) Salt PPT, looks like moss
I like this one! Copper (II) ions in Aqueous Ammonia
White PPT, soluble/insoluble in excess
white ppt, insoluble in excess